2007/08/16

called father quite late in the night.....

aft i told him dat " i am going to fail my IPC.... "

den... i really canot control myself... i just burst into tears....

this is the second time in the five yrs dat i am in singapore... i called back home and cry...


the 1st time was the time when i am asked to move out of BL's house...

i dun even dare to cry in front of my "best friend"

so i called my father under my blk.... i tried my very best to be calm....

still... aft my father said.... "nvm.. mum will go singapore to help you do the moving"

den i cried.... loudly.... under the blk....

all the ppl passing by was looking at me... as if they nv see ppl cry b4...

dat time... was really under too much pressure le..

O levels in 2 month time...

10 tones of rubbish to be moved....

no rooms for renting....

bt my best fren was like going to kick me out of the house the next day...........

lucky... everything is over now....

god bless... no more moving in the next five yrs....



还好房东不在

我一个人坐在房间里面给爸爸打电话

爸爸，跟平常一样，没有半点的责怪和批评。。。

只是告诉我说。。。 不要紧，尽力吧。。。 毕竟如果你真的可以考到70%还是可以及格的

当时几乎就是用喊的了“之前的考试那么容易，我却连一半的分数都拿不到。。现在时间这么赶，又这么多东西要读。。 怎么可能及格？”

“不及格也不要紧的嘛”

“可是要重新读啊！！！！”

“不要紧，那就重新读吧”


我不知道爸爸是故意把“重读”说的那么轻

还是他真的不在意。。。。

也许，只是不想让我压力太大吧。。。

这就是爸爸。。。 这么糟糕的一个女儿，他还是小心翼翼的保护着。。。



so... i dun wana be disturb by anybody in the following days....

i MUST study...



读的不好，就是不好了。。。

一切都是我的错。。。 是我自己没努力。。 是我自己不用功。。

不能怪别人

it's my own fault...

i will take the consequences by MYSELF....

dozing off at 12:19:00 AM