i am so tired, yet i dont feel safe to close my eyes
the insecure feeling just refuse to leave me alone
i am always worried before i travel or before i go camp
i would check my things for more than 10times and bring my whole house with me to whereever i go
i am very much looking forward to tomorrow's simple trip with my lovely friends
hope everything will go wwell
i will buy my pang zis something fat as souvenir
my life is so awesome, i love it very very much
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2010/05/26
just a few random sentences
i am tired for no reason
last saturday's outing at marina barrage was awesome
i didnt know fly kite could be this fun... seriously i didnt know
it's all worth the fun for me to get tanned
i dont like tan me but i love the fun
the graduations are more or less done
maybe there are very random moments where i feel sad or awkward
but still i am happy for all my friends
i am lucky to meet all these very nice people in my poly life
i love you guys a lot
the best part of the day, of course it's the rocking part at hardrock cafe
我觉得不请自来的人，真的很不讨人喜欢，做人怎么那么没有骨气？既然都那么讨厌我了，何必还要粘着我一起去吃晚餐？
the band at hard rock was really cool
especially the guitarist!! OMG, he is so cool so cool so awesome so awesome that i cant force my eyes to leave his fingers
he is DAMN GOOD!
ok, i have pakced 2 things for my malaysia trip
i think that's it for today
good night my world
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2010/05/18
i think they always say, chocolates make your brain produce this hormones that make you feel you are in love
if this is really true, i must be madly madly in love now....
i ate half of the chocoalte that my twin gave me in one afternoon
:D
i feel so happy
i watched the thinking video quite a while ago...
and i think i am very man in this.... i always think of nothing..
it's not i am retarded, but my mind go blind sometimes
and my twin is such a girl, he is always thinking!!
he even thinks about why do i feel cold and yet my body temperature is high...
LOL
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2010/05/17
the story of sebastian's leg goes like this
on thursday night, we met at school for dinner... finally i get to eat my long craved kong pao chicken from alumni
it is as awesome as ever... :D
and then....
we shopped at NTUC for the camping stuff
the kids didnt let me to stay over at the loft... so i was on my way home with joc
bored on the bus, then i remember that they were trying out the pin number of kimis's side gate
so i smsed jovian and sebas... maybe pang zi chia also?
asking them, did you guys manage to open the gate?
chatted a bit with them through sms... and soon after, sebas replied, "i fell, very pain"
LOL.... so when i see him on friday, he was pai ka... because he fell into the long kau while replying my sms
<(‵▽′)> of course i did laugh at him....
╮(－_－)╭ but then.... how is this my fault?
through out the camp i was trying to poke his wound... :D
99% i didnt success
there was only this one time, when we were playing poker, i accidentally hit on his wound...
>_< then i feel guilty for hitting him
what to do? i am such a nice person :D
even if it's my fault, he already had his revenge
when we had the sparring on sunday, the lazy sebas dont want to bring down the guards for me
i fought without arm guards
got a bruise on the wrist
ugly, but i like it
i am very proud of my blue blacks
they are the evidence of my getting stronger
wohoooooooooooooooooooooooo, the camp was so fun, back to uploading the photos
:S
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2010/05/12
:D
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sorry my dearest dearest friend lee
i cant grant you your prata ya ya, prata meal until you are back from HK
i miss you, please miss me too
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i went back to school today, it was so hard to spot jovian in between the people
sadly i didnt manage to book the loft... :( have to bathe in cold water now... sad sad.....
mirko showed my photoes to the lecture today... guess he showed the Germany photoes in my facebook.... LOL, the kids must have seen mr wong sleeping in the icecream shop and me jumping around everywhere
LOL
now i am not only the legendary senior of all CBE students who named cyclobutane as SQAURE
i am also the senior who jumped in all the germany photoes :D
i am so proud of myself
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the fun of this week will get started from tmr onwards... i guess?
i am so looking forward to the camp.... surprisingly, not so much of the universal studio
so many reasons that i dont even want to appear at work on friday
it's going to be a long and tiring day... i shall save up my energy for the weekends
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i know i have drawn many many lines here, i promise this is the last one......
i want this clock, so cool!
i hate arguments
the limitation due to the proficiency of language is of course one reason why i dont really argue
but maybe that is my own way to avoid arguments
i hate it when people doubt me, or make fun of something i love
i share things with people not because i want to be laughed at, i am actually seeking for help
maybe, some secrets are better to be kept to myself...
good night my world
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2010/05/10
no matter how much i train, i just dont sweat
my muscles are aching like nobody's business
it was so shoik to feel the pain, the stretch
it was so shoik to have blisters on my feet
i am such a 被虐狂
sorry for fail to jump over you guys
but, it was so fun so fun so fun!!!
when i say things for 3 times, that means i really mean it deep down from my heart <3
seriously, honestly, hundred percently... no bluff :D
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2010/05/09
i was surprised that people actually responded to my second radom outing
it was a lousy padding washing outing back at ngee ann
i guess this is the first time in our club history that we washed the super smelly paddings
i am super proud of the padding washers
pang zi chia, rui fen, jovian, shi ying, willy and maybe a bit of zhen liang
we meet 10am at school :D good that we started early
we washed at the corner of the track, under the hot sun
brush and rinse until our legs and arms all suan
but it was so nice to see all the padding shining under the sun
soon after we kept the paddings, it started pouring... the paddings were not yet totally dry, dont know what will happen to them on monday
oh ya, please dont use the padding on monday, wait until the camp then use the nice nice padding leh!
it's not easy for the 6 of us to wash everything okay?
there are so many things going to happen next week
i am looking forward to it
i have to save up some of the sleep so that i will stay alive during my camping time
or the trip to universal studio
hope there will be one more room for me at the loft...
i want to bathe in warm water...
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i miss mama
i called, they were out having some nice nice dinner
everybody is spending their day with their mum
why am i all alone by myself?
i am so sick of being alone
but there is no other choice other than being alone
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2010/05/06
当你快乐的时候，全世界都在对着你笑
当你悲伤的时候，全世界就只剩下一个在哭
没有人会一辈子陪着你
要学会坚强，自己走下去
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2010/05/05
i am not going to see my girlfriend until i am back from malaysia
or rather, when she is back from hong kong
i bought 10 packs of strawberry milk today
i will not run out of my strawberry milk again
of course, i topped up my corn flakes, my honey star
it makes me feel safe when i store a lot of food inside my room
i am so going to sleep early tonight
my sup told me that she is going to get me a ticket to the universal studio
so that i can join in the company event
of course i am happy that i can go....
feeling a bit touched that she actually remembered me...
i am still just a kid after all
be nice to me a bit, then i will forget all about the bad things you did to me
sadly, the event is on 14th may
i dont want to be late for my Taekwondo Camp
My favourite camp of all times <3 <3
good night world
see you again at 6am tmr
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2010/05/04
my pony tail has grow into the nice shape of a interation sign
you know? the shape like ∫
i really like the little curve up at the end...
LOL
i have been fighting a very tough war with my fringe for many years
we were equally good, and dont want to lose to each other
i fight him to press him down and make him straight
he fight back by standing up and split any how
i think i might lose my fight with the fringe
=.=
i tried to look at myself in the mirror, without the irritating fringe
to my surprise, i still look human
maybe one day i will try to go out of the house without the fringe
see how people reacts
norman's comment of "i dont look nice doesnt count"
he said my fringe was ugly when most of the people dont even realise i had cut my hair
everbody's hair is just ugly to him
only his hair looks the best... that is his true thinking....
stupid norman
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2010/05/03
i have my own philosophy of living
i am generally easy to go around with unless provoked
yes, it is true that i am old, i am still stuck at school
but who the fuck are you to talk about me like that?
if you dare to make haiyu angry, then you better have the balls to face the angry haiyu
what you mean you didnt know i will be angry? you think i will be happy to hear all that?
nevermind, nevermind....
all is nevermind
i am such a xiao qi person that cannot take jokes
so you better stay far far far fucking far away from me
it is hard to express my anger without vulgarities
i had never thought of controlling my vulgarities before, today, for the first time.... i think i will type less vulgarities on my blog and in my emails to twin....
let's see how this works
dont worry, i still love all the cute kids from taekwondo
i love all of them.... they always make me :)
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no more honey star
no more corn flakes
no more strawberry milk
how am i going to survive tomorrow?
>_<
i am going to learn japanese
i am scared....
i so hungry now... but still no regret for skipping dinner
i love go to bed empty stomached :D
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i hate the weakness in me
i hate to bring home any single beat of unhappiness
i want to be as happy as HAI YU <3
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2010/05/02
2 songs i want to learn after the awesome k session with my girls
搞笑
她来听我的演唱会
i want to be a 宅女 stay home all the time and practice my guitar
lee said she would marry me if i can play 超人不会飞
but i think i am not yet ready for something that serious, 我不要这么快就嫁人啦
stick with my "because i am stupid" first
i am still not yet "awesome" with that song
but, hearing myself playing it make me want to marry me...
what a sweet sweet song
what an awesome instrument!
<3
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it was my first time of being the jio-er for real
of course the planning part is always the headache
even clicking on people's name on facebook needs a bit of courage.. >_<
没办法，我就是这么一个胆小鬼，做什么都要聚集全部的勇气
每一天的每一件小事都充满了惊心动魄
it's nice to see people click on "attending" on facebook
amazing how i managed to randomly jio people on a super no plan super random outing
the plan changed from watching iron man at 2pm to watch at 4 pm
then changed to eat steamboat at bugis
ended up eating random asian kichen at illuma
i think my sms is going to exceed the limite again, maybe i should get my student plan as soon as possible... >_<
still it's fun to hang out with all my lovely taekwondo mates
the kids are awesome
li qiang's van managed to squeeze 11 people inside, this is going to be an awesome record!!
i love steady people like rui fen, i jio her 30mins before the meeting time, she still managed to come with us!! wohooo
the random outing turned out to be a great outing
we will go to the double helix next time okay? no more weird weird bridge on the moutain
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it's funny how people think that i never change
i thought i had controlled 90% of my running arounds
but oh well, it's all the stupid human nature right?
even if you change for the better, people wont believe it, or they dont even notice
in their mind, all they could remember is haiyu slacking and running around
ok, dont treat anything too seriously
dont think too high of myself, i am always the 可有可无的 jiang hai yu
btw, should i write my name as Jiang Haiyu or Jiang Hai Yu
sometimes i seperate them, but the "Yu" seems to be so lonly left behind all alone...
-_-
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just listened to jay's new song 超人不会飞
i miss this guy like crasy, finally he's back doing his music
it has been 10 years... from the guy in the cap, to jay chou
歌词里的左右为难 听了让人很心疼
杰伦的疲惫和无奈，字字句句都写得很清楚
都是击在心头的痛
对杰伦的喜欢亦如初见
人生若只如初见，何事西风悲画扇？
雨纷纷 旧故里草木深
我听闻 你始终一个人
斑驳的城门 盘踞着老树根
石板上回荡的是 再等
雨纷纷 旧故里草木深
我听闻 你仍守着孤城
城郊牧笛声 落在那座野村
缘份落地生根是 我们
听青春 迎来笑声 羡煞许多人
那史册 温柔不肯 下笔都太狠
烟花易冷 人事易分
而你在问 我是否还认真
我本不该用自己粗俗的语言来抹煞杰伦歌词中的如诗入画
可是，真的喜欢他那小雨淅沥 闪着淡淡莹雾的意境
我是真的很认真
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2010/05/01
the process of "jio-ing" is so hard
but at least i asked every single person that i have on facebook
i feel proud of myself for being so brave XD
maybe next time, if there is ever a next time
i will make sure that i have everybody's number then jio them out...
>_<
see you people tmr <3
thanks for giving me face<3
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