yesterday was the first day of my eat less exercise more plan. not a very efficient day cos twin treated me with this very nice chinese style buffet. it was soooo nice! thank you twin!!!
and friend, let's go there eat again!!
but we need four people to eat together in order to get the promotion. who who who can go with us?
很奇妙的我们竟然会异口同声的说出一样的话. 原来不需要心存好感, 只要一点点时间就能让人同声同气.
dozing off at
2010/08/29
every saturday seems to be a bleeding day. my toe or my hand will always get some additional colors :(
it's ok.. saturdays are good
i always feel extra motivated on saturdays..<3
dozing off at
2010/08/27
this kind of thing doesnt work very well for the low confidence ones
all the more i dont feel like fighting.
how am i going to drag myself to the training on 6 sep in heels if i got injury all over my body?
what for train so much if i am going to lose?
what for try so hard to lose weight if i know i am going to be knocked out in 90secs?
what am i fighting for? i have not yet found out the answer..
dozing off at
2010/08/25
it's not i dont love you any more
it's not i dont want to be with you
what can i do when you keep disappointing me and pushing me away?
i want to be one of you guys!
truely...
dozing off at
2010/08/24
一个人走去搭巴士回家的时候，心里有点小小的落寞
如果以后真的搬去了更远的地方，应该会更寂寞吧，与世隔绝般的
大家上班的上班，当兵的当兵，谁还会去搭理我呢？
忍不住会想
如果我有一个男朋友多好，就不用一个人吃晚饭了
如果我有一个男朋友多好，就可以穿他的牛仔裤去上班
如果我就这么孤孤单单的一个人死了，我的骨灰会被放在灵骨塔上的哪一格？
会有谁去看我？会有谁为我落泪？
我的比赛，还有我以后的工作，让我觉得我离死亡很近
忍不住想了一些乱七八糟的“如果”
如果如果如果如果。。。。。
dozing off at
2010/08/23
i think i did well in the friendly match.. from the moment i am in the room, the idea of run away and hide somewhere has never leave my mind
proud to say, i fight for 2 rounds. never let the fear overtake me!
win or lose, it still makes me happy. maybe apart from winning the match, i need to have some "entertaining" factor in my match... even myself feel boring during the sparring, sometimes, sometimes...
there are still the same old problems with me.. slow slow slow..
:(
like this not only i wont get my curry rice, but i might also get my head kicked
trying my best is not enough, i have to be the best
sorry to my dearest friend and alvinn and pinkie. i know i have been pushing back a lot of things.. i have been absenting a lot in the meet ups... i know it is hard for you guys to understand this, but let's take it as if i dont train hard now i will get killed in three weeks' time.
and please do not trying to come and watch me fighting in the nationals. you guys have been never supportive in me and my taekwondo. maybe you are too shy to say the word "cool" in front of me. and you guys dont know abt the sport at all, you make stupid jokes which sounds quite hurting to me.
i know some ppl always think, haha, what can you do with your kicks? you are a girl after all. you are so weak... yes, if we fight in the peaceful way you look down on us and dont give a damn about taekwondo, when we get violent a bit, you people will start saying this is a danverous sport and it shld be stopped...
what should i do?!
being me, the extremely no confidient, super negative me, i know all my weakness very well. so if you have not seen me fight, please keep the comments to yourself.
i love taekwondo <3
nothing can change this, that's why i am engaged to NPTKD...:D
the NUS shuai ge is just so shuai!
dozing off at
2010/08/16
i am bad at keeping secrets and now i have to suffer from unable to keep my own secret.
it's my own fault cant blame others.
jie lun zhu wo cheng gong
dozing off at
2010/08/15
new test
the famous 16 personality test, twin go do this, see if we are still twins
| Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results
|
personality tests by similarminds.com
dozing off at
one of my very shy toes were injured. now all the toe siblings have to face the sunlight.
:(
since the day i decided to participate in the nationals tournament, i told myself to stop avoiding sparring.
there has always been too much fear in me. i cant bring them to nationals with me
i always kept the promise tomyself, until yesterday...
all the pain and fear attacked me, i cant move my leg to sparr with anyone
there are more and more collection of bruises on me. if it goes like this, soon i will be in the color of avarta
:(
nevermind, i am always proud of all my blue blacks. they are the evidence of me putting in effort for my curry rice.
i like to feel the pain. they reminds me of my weakness and pushing me to train harder
:)
can i get some courage from ebay or something?
can someone email me some confidence?
is there a menu to teach me how to be aggressive?
i want to be fearless, fearless fearless
dozing off at
2010/08/11
我灰常灰常滴期待这个"没教养的九月" 还有我挚爱的 江先生.
金叔加油 直树加油
dozing off at
2010/08/09
OMG i cant wait to watch 《恶作剧之吻》 by kim hyun joong
OMG OMG OMG, my hyun joong oppa as jiang zhi shu, how nice!!!!!!
this boy always got me screaming...
sad part, wont be seeing his sunshine smile very often in that show
=/ he is supposed to act cool....
he got new 写真集 also!!!
i want i want i want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dozing off at
i was quite pissed on saturday when i know that i didnt get the job
and i wont be getting it in the near future
not only they have wasted my beautiful saturday, also they had spoilt my plan of dating my girlfriend
sorry my friend, i will let you eat as many pratas as you want next time
they are pure evil
why couldnt they state that on their super useful website?!
or they were just picking on me
anyway, it was a good experience
i proved to myself that i can do something that i used to be so scared of
yap, speaking in the public has never been easy for me... but at least for once i did it well
after graduation, me and my friends has proceed to a totally different phase in our life
there are less talking about the game, the silly stuff
but there are more topics on the job hunting, money.... future, studies....
everything used to be so far away from us, but now, i have to make a decision
10 August 2010 7am will be my 8 year anniversary with Singapore
i dont exactly love this place, but i enjoyed my stay here
again and again, i appreciate all the help that my friends had given me in the past few years
i love my dearest friend, my twin, my NPTKD, my pang zi TKD, my infineum......
i almost let my friend used my IC to sign up for her to sign up the iPhone plan
maybe she was surprised to find out that there is actually someone out there trust her so much until can lend her the IC.
i dont know... last week's date make me think about the past... a lot.....
you remember the days back at tanglin?
my first day there, i had lunch with you..... i wasnt as gorgeous as now 8 years ago, maybe i was also one of the typicals... i am happy that u actually did talk to me, it was very sweet of you...
i know there are some not so nice people in our shared memory, i am glad that at least i had you... at least you stayed with me, ever since we changed from "classmates" to "friends" in sec 4.
work hard at your bank, take care of my money too!
i will see you at the prata shop soon soon <3
and, oh ya, guess who else are Jay chou fans?! <(‵▽′)>
Marty Friedman and Leah Dizon
╮(︶︿︶) ╭
what to do? jay chou is just so awesome
Marty Friedman playing jay's qi li xiang! <3
dozing off at
2010/08/06
dozing off at
2010/08/01
俗话说：兔子不吃窝边草；可俗话又说：近水楼台先得月
俗话说：人不犯我，我不犯人；可俗话又说：先下手为强，后下手遭殃
俗话说：一个好汉三个帮；可俗话又说：求人不如求己
俗话说：瘦死的骆驼比马大；可俗话又说：拔了毛的凤凰不如鸡
俗话说：宁可玉碎，不为瓦全；可俗话又说：留得青山在，不怕没柴烧
俗话说：退一步海阔天空；可俗话又说：狭路相逢勇者胜
俗话说：三百六十行，行行出状元；可俗话又说：万般皆下品，唯有读书高
俗话说：出淤泥而不染；可俗话又说：近朱者赤，近墨者黑
俗话说：善有善报，恶有恶报；可俗话又说：人善被人欺，马善被人骑
俗话说：滴水之恩，涌泉相报；可俗话又说：兔死狗烹，鸟尽弓藏
全都让俗话给说了 -_-！！
dozing off at
">
