i love muscle aches
i love bruises
that's why taekwondo is a good choice for me
really love to train with the kids
they are always so passionate, never feeling tired, as if they dont know what is pain
and doing all the stunning kicks that i could never imagine myself doing
they make me want to train more, want to be as fast as them, as qiang as them
hope my muscle aches wont last too long
my black belt grading is this coming saturday
i have been waiting for this black belt since 3 years ago
and this might be the one and only chance i ever have
please please please
i will practice hard, please let me get the black belt
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finished "absolute boyfriend" in two days
cried all the way through the last 2 episodes, the more they smile at each other, the more i cried
and my eyes are hurting very badly now :(
one good thing, my japanese is not as bad as i thought
i can actually pick up some simple lines while watching
how nice <3
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i will go to bed after seeing his facebook page
i am a very professional stalker
:D
if it is not because of him, i probably wont start listening to songs by T-ara
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2010/09/25
so that was the last day at Infineum
time has never felt this short at work
i was glad that i spent my last day with my favourite team 2
from the morning, everything was like so rush
my account expired and cant login to computer :(
had so much trouble while tring to reactivate the account
saved my photos over the 7months
deleted all my hard work over the 7 months
it was kind of scary to see my desktop so empty...
when i went to take picture with the people, there were only half and hour left for me to take picture with the nice nice people
i should have started like 2,3 days early to take picture with the colleages
didnt get the chance to take picture with a lot of the people :(
while i was collecting my stuff and put them into a box, real sad
i know it is diu lian, but there were tears rushing into my eyes
regreted for not crying together with jolynn/sook ching on their last day, then it wont be so diu lian to cry alone
there were so much nice memories from infineum
all the nice people i met
all the fun events that i attended
i really loved that company <3
but i have to leave that company
i tried to take as many pictures in my PPE as possible
maybe in my entire life, i wont have the chance to wear such a PPE again
happy that i got my infineum jacket as suvinour... love it!
see you Infineum...
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they said you looks like the guy from absolute boyfriend
so i watched the drama
he looks like you or you look like him?
nah, you are much better looking
seriously
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2010/09/21
why so cheapo?!?!
i thought my country men were said to have the cheapo genes in our blood? someone explain to me why is she like this then?
my tea leaves are very precious to me. not only for the fact that they are not that cheap, but also they were sent to me with baba's love. how can someone keep asking for it when i am obviously reluctant to let go?!
why so cheapo why?!
you make me so speechless......
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i know i have a very low tolerance of caffeine, but i was really sleepy today, i put 2 spoons of coffee powder into my cup...
and now, i think i am suffering from caffeien intoxication, i am feeling restless, nervousness, fidgetiness, irritability, rapid heart beat......
so xin ku :(
kind of hope i end work as fast as possible, so that i dont have to wake up early, dont have to drink coffee to keep myself alert...
i hate coffee :(
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finally i said all the things that i want to say. hope i wasn't too harsh on the kids.
i am not like joc, she can always phrase things in a nicer way, easier for people to accept. maybe it might be too rough for the kids to hear all these from me.
i am so nobody :(
there might be people who are doing more work for the club than the rest. but that doesnt means you are always correct. we do recognise the efforts you have put in, but that doesnt give you the right to blame others for all the mistakes. a lot things can be improved.
people complaint about having not enough sleep. it is true that sleeping time is precious especially for me, because i am either sleeping or feeling sleepy. LOL but to me, the time that i spent with nptkd is 10 times 100 times more precious than the sleeping time.
come on, there are 7 days in a week, we only have training for 2 days. sleep early on the other 5 days. spare a bit of your precious_as_gold time for NPTKD can?
i hope to see my lovely nptkd to become very very qiang! please be qiang!
i came in peace, pls do not hate me for the things i have said.
long live and prosper!
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it was kind of shocking for me to hear people say "then how come it is engaged with jiang haiyu desiree?"
seems like the only way for people to shut up is dont do anything wrong. even if it is just a small small matter
i will be better, just for you.
<3
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i miss the days when my twin still have his hair. i can just sms him last last min and then go out with him.
my ear piece died a fews days ago, and i have not yet bought another one.
my friend is so busy working for busy falling sick :(
maybe it is time for me to go solo :(
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2010/09/19
haha, this is a very very cute boy. i wonder is his tummy real..
he should have taken this picture with my engineering material lecturer, that old dude really looks like the old guy in the picture!
an average worker
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For Eugene
i fight against my fear
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2010/09/18
hey twin, i just read the letter you wrote to me
i swear you are the coolest twin that i ever had
while reading the letter, i realised that you have sent a photo to me
but before seeing it i actually prayed quite hard that it would be a photo of the botak you....
LOL
i really really want to watch resident evil
but i dont know who can i watch this with. girls dont fancy such shows, guys are busy crawling on grass :(
i am so guai when you all are not around, stayed home on wednesday and friday :(
so not me...
knowing you as good as knowing myself, i do understand how much you hated to choose a side
thank you for always choosing me, i am editing my death wishes, i will write more to you in there :)
hey twin, i miss you :(
hey pinkie, i miss you too :(
please release my twin soon
i know you people are reading...
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2010/09/17
the counter shows 9981 today, guess it's time to play my lame game again
let's see who will be my 9999
same game
if you are the 9999th visitor of my blog, just tell me who you are by writing on the tagboard
it will be even better if you printscreen and tag me on facebook
please do not refresh unnecessarily.
seriously, no naked girl will pop out on my page even if you refresh 1000 times.
dont try it too hard
if it meant to be yours, it will be yours
i remember setting up this blog when i was year one, taking some shitty module called biomolecular science
there were quite a few of us who started together, guess i am the only one left
i nags a lot, cant help it...
time flies, things change, people change. but the sweet memories remain.
<3
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2010/09/16
i feel happy today because NPTKD ran together
at least i feel that the training is getting better, i am happy for the club <3
pattern is very difficult this time
i dont have the problem of remembering the steps of the pattern, but i have very serious hand and leg coordination problems
they just cant move at the same time! how?!
i cant move my feet while doing a punch! i cant kick and then quickly do a outter forarm inward block. how?!!!
:(
i am so despo for my black belt now
no matter how much it takes, i will try my best to get it!!!!!
aza aza fighting!
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a short term goal related to TaeKwonDo other than the black belt
be more patience and try to improve my relationship with that "someone"
i have been ignoring him and always going against his wish whenever i can
because he used to ignore me a lot, and also look down on me
yeah, i am not the type of pretty girls who will catch his attention... whatever makes you happy
but the ignoring has worsen a lot of problems, not beneficial to any party.
it is time for some improvement
from now till mid nov, i shall try to talk to him as much as can
i will try my best to be understanding, be patient, be supportive. and be serious.
not only him, maybe i should start talking to zz as well
actually things were fine between us, it's because ppl joke about us, then i started to distant him a lot.
i have been very mean and very evil towards him.. >_<
he actually is contributing to the club in some of his own ways. even though we were all so mean towards him, he still came for training, he still helped us to referee
at least i said "bye bye" to him the other day. small achievement is also counted :D
time for a big change man
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2010/09/14
after updating the operating system of the phone it actually shows how many sms have i sent+received from each contact
thought it will be interesting to list them done, and knowing who are they
so when i am about to edit my death wish, i can write a few words to these people
(arrange from very high to high)
chia wk
alvinn lim
sebas
best friend
jocelyn
number of sms sent to my dearest dearest friend leelified is unknow
because her name is too long and it blocked the number of sms-es. ya, the super long "my dearest dearest friend leelified *muk emoticon*" was her name in my phone. trust me, more than 10 ppl has asked me who is that dearest of mine... LOL
dearest jiu shi dearest lo, ask so much for what?
from itunes, top 5 most played songs
(arranged from very favourite to favourite)
Love ya
Love like this
Because i am stupid
Let me be the one
嘻哈空姐
4 out of 5 was from hyun joong <3
and one from my all time favourite jie lun
too bad i didnt start using itunes earlier, if not the number will be more significant
time to sleep
i love infineum's half day policy on wednesdays
it is such an awesome company!!
woooohooooooooooooooooooooo
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guess what, when my twin is not around, mr wong became my email buddy to chat with me at work
haha, a very interesting buddy i have
guess my twin must be so busy at tekong slimming centre. he must be busy pretending to be botak, busy crowling on the grass, busy drawing his face green... so busy that he doesnt even have the time to reply my messages
unlike!
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I know life will never go exactly the way i want it to be. But when it is so far from what i expected, it shocks me and make me dont know what to do.
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you have been in my head the whole day dozing off at
when the word "neglect" poped out in my head, i was scared by it
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this is a story about the glory of some unlucky taekwondo player dozing off at
i am gonna stay 21 forever dozing off at
if anyone is doing some last minute shopping. i would tell you, it is not necessary.. i may not survive on 5th sep, therefore stay "forever 21" dozing off at
Sometimes i just feel like sitting down on the floor, hide my face between my knees and have a good cry. if that could help.
Doing update of the test method really sux. this is the worst type of paper work one person could ever get. The lag-way-too-much software drives me crazy. The software is too dificult to handle for a computer idiot like me. There are thousand and one buttons waiting to be clicked by me. I am always lost in the middle of no where.
I have a huge piece of paper, it is filled with steps i have to follow and also i draw the icons that i have to click. Others call it 武功秘籍. Haha, only i can understand what was written on it. How cool.
I dont usually complain about work.I dont think complaints and being unhappy helps to improve. Anyway i am really really happy about my job. I like my job scope, i like the work place, i like the people who are working together with me.. oh well, maybe there is one exception. haha
There is nothing more i could ask for.
I have wrote down four different LAST DAYs on my calender, still unable to leave this place. There is another "last day" coming near again. I am afraid this is going to be the last "last day" that i am gonna have. It is kind of pain for me to leave a place that i really love, but i look forward to my next job even more.<3>
Eugene low zhen liang. let's jia you together!!
2010/09/13
whenever the super lagging LABWARE or SAP software pops out some yellowish orange color window, reminds me of you sitting at the coner...
you occupied my mind for the entire day, arent you tired?
>_< make me cant concentrate on fighting the lagging softwares and messy datas
不要以为你cute就了不起
虽然现在是你赢，但总有一天我会战胜你！
am i nellecting someone that really matters a lot to me?
i always thought i didnt have many friends, i can manage them well
but seems like it is much harder to do so when i am working, even just as an intern
maybe it will get worse when i start working for real
my unhuman timetable will murder all my quality time with my friends
but, the friends i have now are really the poeple that i care, and at the same time, they do care a lot for me
i want to have them in my life, always and always
i will try my best to keep in contact with them... <3
it might seems as if i am spending a lot of time with my taekwondo friends
but actually, not so much of the going out part, it is the training that has been taking up a lot of my spare time
ya, i know i am always replying with the "sorry, i've got taekwondo"
there is nothing much i could do about it... i have to train...
i have not seen pinkie for a while, and i miss him :(
i dont like army, i am slowly losing all my male friends :(
the national tournament was fun and yet kind of disappointing
i didnt expect something much better, but it is still too harsh for me to see it with my own eyes
nptkd is where i first started my taekwondo, it is really a club that i care. i am concerned about everything that is happening in the club, no matter how small it is
and i really really want to help the club in any way i could
if the club needs referee, then i will go get my black belt and go for the course
if the club needs more coaches, then i will go become a coach... ya ya, who wants to be coached by me is another issue
but this is how much i care for the club, and i am willing to put in effort
so, is the others willing to do as much as me?
i am on my way to grant my promises to NPTKD, what is the resting doing?
i am not asking you to put taekwondo as the first priority in your life. come on, we all got to face the real world. we still need to study, need to work
but at least the basics? at least do what your position requires you to do?
maybe i am not in the position to give comments and shout at your guys
but the situation of the club now really makes me worry, and i want to help
i miss the days when i was just a white belt
sir adrian used to train us, i am deadly tired after each training, but all the more i want to go for the training! everything was sooooooo fun!!!!
we ran together on the track every time before training starts, i am always slow, cant catch up with the rest
but, there are always seniors pushing me on my back.. literally.. LOL
we kick hard we shout loud
we eat together after every training
even as a white belt, we are always "invited" to watch national tournament
it really makes me love taekwondo more and more and more
why does people lost their interst?
why people dont join in even if they are interested?
we seriously need to find out the reason....
how now brown cow? T^T
there were this real cute guy at the tournament
hm.... i know he has always been there, IVP, CKS, friendly match....
aawwww, just so cute, that's all.
2010/09/08
maybe this is to prove to me that it was wrong for me to say "i dont believe in luck, i believe in skills" before my tournament
the phrase "the best defence is to attack" was read a few times before i enter the court
and then attacked my opponent
i would always and always remember the moment where my feet landed on her face
it might be one of the best moments in my life
her facial expression had signs of fear, unsure, stunning, regrets and so much more
not really the entire sports hall, but definitely many made the noise of "awwwww"
i didnt really perform well in the 2nd and 3rd part of the match
my mind was totally occupied with "head attacks" i was trapped there and cant move out
persistence may not bring you good all the time
i didnt win my match
i have to admit that i wasnt good enough to win
but i should not have lose to someone like her.
i wasnt so sad at first
when i steped out of the court, i saw the handsome mr 19 sitting there
and then i realised my great fail was seen by him, i feel diu lian
a very good sir actually messaged and asked about my match... thinking about the trainings that he gave me... and the concerns he had for me, makes me feel very bad
guess my eyes were a bit wet
but i didnt want to cry in front of HIM
not as if i truely agree with the things he said to me
i dont want him to get the wrong impression that i regreted for not following his directions
my tears arent for him
when i saw my friends, the first thing i heard was "nice slamming kick"
it really comforts me a lot
they are still my friends, being there to support me and seeing all the good things in me
i really really appreciate their presence and supports
<3
i really really want to thank all my friends, who wished me luck, prayed for me before the tournament. and also those who pushed me to my maximum, i like how they forced me to training, dont allow me to sit down during trainings... helping me to warm up before the competition...
i love my friends
i love my fiance taekwondo
this match has totally brought up my interest for sparring again
seriously i like the kind of excitement
i really treasure my time at school, with my lovely taekwondo kids
i hope there is a way for me to continue even when i start working for real
i want to fight again
i want to fight endlessly
i want to be gold medalist
i dont want to buy the icecreams :(
second time losing a bet in my betting life....
2010/09/05
i will jia you for my national tournament
best wishes for all
the matches and the exams...
make me proud!
2010/09/03
and some hint for the shopping
helium always bring in a lot of fun, so if can, buy me helium ballons! it will be nice if they are in the shape of patric. lol
and anything that has got to do with cameras are cool
ok that's all
NO TTT PLEASE.(THOMAS THE TRAIN) THEY ARE SCARY!!!!!!!! and
wish me best luck for not only sunday, but the monday as well, please.
and, i only need one person to help me hold target when i am warming up. kids who got exams to deal with, pls stay home and study real hard!
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