things are all differnt when i lost my first match

i got no mood to talk about it

it really sux


or rather, i was sux



i didnt feel the pain when i was fighting

now my chin hurts when pressed

how ridiculous is this, i gana hit at the head twice in a blue belt sparring

fuck it



i know things would be bad... but i didnt know it's going to be this bad

to train harder and fight well

or to quit and curse those who win

i dont know

but still, i love taekwondo, as much as ever


+++++++++++++++++++++++++

委屈又窝囊

敌人是不会对你存有半点仁慈的

打得太老实，没人会觉得你人格高尚

与其努力练习，不如早点学些旁门左道

专门对付那些打法肮脏的对手



说什么都没用

输了就是输了。。 讲起话来都底气不足

本来就觉得这里没有我的立足之地

现在更是 一无是处


arghhhhhhhhhh..........


++++++++++++++++++++

good luck for the ppl fighting tmr

jia you jia you jia you!!!!

dozing off at 10:07:00 PM

i tried to sleep, but i cant really sleep

i am afraid of tmr

the more i wana win, the more likely i'm gona lose

i know that well

plus i didnt train at all

even until now, i'm still thinking, should i go for it or not


the butterflies are flying inside my little tummy

i can barely hold them

i had not trained hard enough

i know that better than anybody else



i didnt ask anybody to come and see me fight

at first i wanted to ask a few closed ones to come

but end up i realise, nobody could understand this sport unless they are doing it themselves

they could only judge by the score

and i knew i cant get a good score

i saw the way that they see other martial arts

i know they wont see taekwondo as the way i see it

it's going to be my worst day ever tmr

dun disturb me .....




haiyu seems to be fierce and bad tempered recently

i really need to drink with you guys on sunday


leave me alone for now
i am frustrated and annoyed


+++++++++++++++++++

i watched marley & me...

even though the quality of the movie sux

but it's still a nice show

and i like jeniffer aniston :)


++++++++++++++++++++

if i cry, just let me cry

+++++++++++++++++++++

i'm going to sleep for real now

my pudding tasted nice :)


i love Taekwondo

maybe there's one thing that is going to make me happy

i'm gonna use my spongebob bag tmr!!!

:D

dozing off at 11:41:00 PM

i dun feel safe



so, all the 神仙佛祖 上帝老头 麻烦显显灵


不管是谁家的神都好



让我能保持冷静


让我的paper 容易一点


就一点~ 就好




阿弥陀佛，阿门

buddha bless me

best wishes for all

:)

dozing off at 1:12:00 AM

no matter how many "very"s i use, i cant describe how scared i am for tmr's paper

RENG

it's not reng, it's R-E-N-G

i just dun like it when ppl call it RENG =/


maybe this is the first sem that i actually cares about how am i doing for my studies

i really want to do well

especially for Maths


and i get agitated when i cant figure out how to do the questions

(agaitated not in the cells way, but a more human way)



Wish me good luck

and hope my girlfriend get well soon

take care~


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http://blog.watanabepro.co.jp/shirotayu/index.html

the blog of my cuttie :D

finally there's someone that can compare with my chiaki senpai~~

:)

he's such a sweet sweet eye candy

every morning, i would wake up in the song of kieski

the first person i see every morning is him!!!! XD

this helps me to wake up!!!


love my shinjo

weeeee~~~~

dozing off at 1:04:00 AM

fear me please~

+++++++++++++++++

extraction from earlier conversation:

The Green Guitarcist® ・ｨ・ﾆ・､・ｳ・・ ・ﾌ ・ｽ・ﾟ・ﾉ I pwned Haiyu >=D says:
*haiyu is fighting u right now
*are u scared?
Jerick.L.Jr. - My heart skipped a beat, I blushed. says:
*no
*==
The Green Guitarcist® ・ｨ・ﾆ・､・ｳ・・ ・ﾌ ・ｽ・ﾟ・ﾉ I pwned Haiyu >=D says:
*lool
Jerick.L.Jr. - My heart skipped a beat, I blushed. says:
*hey
The Green Guitarcist® ・ｨ・ﾆ・､・ｳ・・ ・ﾌ ・ｽ・ﾟ・ﾉ I pwned Haiyu >=D says:
*good for you

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

trying to take a revenge on me ya?

hee heeee.....

dozing off at 10:18:00 PM

so, i went to work stupidly today

it's amzing that the way i talk sounds like him.. cos he is the one who taught me to do it first

so all the things that we say are exactly the same

"welcome back, please mind your steps, thank you hope to see you again"

and because i am so used to work at delta, i keep saying wrong things when i shift to echo


so here it comes

when the guest enters the capsule, they are about to take the flight

and i said "thank you, hope to see you again"

the expression the the guest's face is like...... so stun and scared...

i didnt mean that there are chances i may not be seeing him after he took the ride

just i'm used to be delta..

LOL LOL


++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

just an information for people who want to get the free ride at flyer, using the sms

better dont try ur luck already

unless you are on the list of "2000 most kiasu singaporeans"

people are really crasy!!! they started Q-ing for the tickets since 10pm on friday night!!!!

and there are only 2009 tickets give out on each weekend

means saturday + sunday = 2009 free tickets...

they are really singaporeans... cheap must buy, free MUst take... it's really a MUST for them

>_<

i hate free things


++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

i have taken my revenge againt those ppl who came to bully me when mark is not in my band

hmph~~~~~

bully me some more la!!!!



i went back to each and every one of them

to re-match with them

all thanks to mark, i won!!!!!

even the person who bought away my Lee, i went to battle with him

i won as well :D

and kee swee can no longer bully me!!!

cos he's inside my band :)

weeee~~~~~~~~

Heroes is getting so exciting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cant wait for ep 17!!!!

dozing off at 12:45:00 AM

dozing off at 12:44:00 AM

this is my 299th post....

i have been working very hard on this blog man~


after watching "the curious case of benjamin button" things about live & die started rushing into my head

i have been always imagining about the life after i die.. probably it would be nothing....


still i think about my funeral, imagining myself floating in the air, waching all my beloved friends crying for me :)

xin wei~


maybe it's about the jordan incident... i am afraid that i might just die off after my lunch


so i wrote something on my blog

i want things to be in a certain way after i die
i sure will have things to say to my parents... and my friends

so, just in case~



it will be saved as draft

if i really dies... please open and read it


this is gonna be fun~~


i think Lee know the password of this blog...
she helped me out with some blogskin things last time

if not, alvinN defenitely knows my MSN password
i saved my blog's password in my email ... as draft


to save ur time, it's the 300th post of this blog



good night to friends who can only read english



+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

据说刚出狱的犯人，每次吃饭都不知道饱

因为受尽了监狱里不饥不饱的折磨，他们总是担心吃了这顿就没有下顿。。。 于是拼命的吃很多

大概，我的经济状态，也就是这样吧

暂时不算是穷人。。 可心里很清楚的知道，穷的日子早晚会来。。 于是，只要一有机会，便拼命赚钱

当然，我赚钱的机会也不多，flyer 罢了

可是，就会很没头脑，没主见的 傻傻的，只要人家打来，就答应回去做工

我怕。。。

那种连方便面都买不起的日子，我有过。。。

我真的很怕一切又重新来过


痛恨自己是一回事
回到现实，努力工作努力读书，又是一回事

分身乏术

我不过是凡人一个


一个总是担心下顿没得吃的凡人

dozing off at 1:12:00 AM

flyer is really a nice place to work if u have a friend with you

there will be endless of fun

and some more fun~

i had not met ivy at work for sooooooooooooo long

i guess ever since i given up working in the morning...

LOL

so here is ivy and MY dog

sadly, someone took him away from me :(

the little cookie with salmon in it

IVY again XD

some nice but oily crab meat

my first taste of champange

it's nice man!!! it's gasy

but bitter

weeee~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

some guy pulling the yellow fences

BTW, his name is also MARK

yes, as the usual me, i laughed at him...

still i tried to help him

but the thing was heavey for real

=.=

++++++++++++++++++

i was with chocolate yesterday

even just for a little while only, i am still velleeee happy

he seems to be in a very good mood yesterday

doing all the funny things, and asking me to join him =/

still it's nice to be with him

:)

really hope that he can get into the school he wants

good luck~

dozing off at 10:34:00 PM

thank you for refreshing my blog

thank you for keep the counter jumping

every bit of hard work counts


good night ppl

good night busy woman

:D

dozing off at 1:47:00 AM

since the pictures were taken, they are meant to be uploaded

they say they saw me on joc's facebook

"how u know it's me?"

"see ur butt then know already"


oh my little butt XD

i kick ugly :(


i know u see dia dia

but i see me also~~~ wearing a super big shirt which were meant to be mark's


i dun know since when taekwondo had sooooooooooooo many people

streched before i went to sleep

cant really strech to the max at that time

cos of my super duper muscle pain pain pain ... LOL

people always have the idea that i am born flexible

but nobody knows i used to be streching everyday before i sleep and when i just wake up

used to be

only i know how pain it is when i strech in the morning

ouch

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

i hate myself for being so fat

i hate myself for unable to control myself

only i can hate myself, u cant

i nv drink my favourite coke for 2 weeks

i nv eat rice for one week

i never eat my chocolate for a lot a lot a lot of days

maybe 5 days?

i had been cutting down on my chips and sweets since long ago

i really tried my best, and yet i didnt get what i want

how dissapointing

dont think that there's only one person trying hard

open ur eyes and see, there are thousands of ppl trying their best

i also did run everyday okay?

how can u ask me "what have u been doing for the last few days?"

i nv eat for two days and only drink 1 bubble tea in the two days

when i look at my body, i really dun know which part of it can afford to lose more weight

dont look at me with that kind of face

you are in no position to doubt my effort

i had given the best part of me to taekwondo

my time, my money, and even my look (when i already dun look nice) :(

i am so pathetic to do well in taekwondo

i need something to brighten up my life

i really really really want to fight well

i really really have to fight well

i love taekwondo

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

it's always good to see him at work

especially on valentine's day

he's as perfect as usual

it's so nice to see him

even if i cant be with him :(

happy valentine

and i love my girlfriend

jia you at ur zoo

dozing off at 12:48:00 AM

i hate losing weight

:(

i'm always eating, but not eat until full... it's just eat until not hungry

no carbonated drinks, no rice no bread for the past one week

and average 2km of running everyday


i'm shutting down


i dont bother to talk or to stay awake

cos i want to conserve my energy


i eat a spoon of nutella just now

i know i might regret this on saturday

but i really cant take it already


haiyu has never been on diet before

she cant control her desires



what is life without chocolate and ice cream man!!!!!!!


my world is so grey

:(




i shall try my best

there's not many things that i am good in

maybe, i am not that good in taekwondo as well

but, i want to give my best part into this sport


i love taekwondo

dozing off at 11:52:00 PM

they came to the house

i got nothing to say cos it's not my house


they dye their hair

i got nothing to say cos it's not my hair


but those bloody clumsy kids dirty-ed my tkd pants

this is unforgivable


stupid kids

the stain is not big

but a black stain on white pants just piss me off


i am not okay with this kind of thing

i am not cool about it


the kid is so scared that i would go tell his father about it

whenever the father is talking to me, he stand there and watch me talk



kids, if you are really so scared, then better dont let me catch u again

dozing off at 11:04:00 PM

finally i see some hope in my TKD

still it's nothing compare to my best times

i am much weaker, slower... but luckily, i'm more flexible :D

for the first time in my 2 yrs' time, i finished the compus run...

of course it's at haiyu speed

it's okay, at least i finised


i am too lazy to upload any picture right now

but overall, it's a good camp

i got all the muscle aches that i expected

it hurts whenever i sit or stand up or walk or laugh or sneeze or or or... just anything i do, it hurts..

=.=


and now, the plan of losing weight is on

haiyu is now offically on diet

dozing off at 9:28:00 PM

there are so many things i want to talk about

not here, but face to face

not to everybody, but to my friends ONLY

i cant take this any more



you got no right to treat me like this




it's all over now


i've had enough from you


u have finally get rid of me

you can ignore me for all you want

run away from me!!! run!!!!!



u say u dont want to give up

and yet u are doing all kinds of things that makes me think that u have given up

maybe u hate me deep inside ur heart


that's why you are saying all the mean things to me



and thanks for kicking me out of the group... i feel so much better




dont explain any more

there's no point

there's nothing that can change the point, i hate you



i'm so glad that everything is over

i'd rather fail my project than spending a single minute with you




i think i must have been fuck dumb to believe in you


bang bang!

dozing off at 11:25:00 PM

i really really really need to sleep....

so sick and tired of everything that i am going through...

flying with him isnt that fun any more...

it's the lost of hope and faith in myself...



i need to rest...

i have to rest.........

dozing off at 11:33:00 AM