i tried my best to patch things back
i tried to talk to him, i tried to pretend as if nothing happened
it's hard to talk to someone when you are constantly being ignored
so this is how is it like~
i might be mad at my twin for saying all these things
mean or not mean, certain things should be left for me to say, not anybody else
even if it's my twin
but after all, he is my twin, i cant be mad at him forever
it's okay, i am still enjoying all my time at taekwondo
all the running around, all the making fun of each other, the bite on zhenliang's hand... everything makes me so happy
so much happier than the working times
i hate being the sai kang girl, but there is nothing i can do to help
上班一条虫 下班一条龙
this is so true :D
finally i had my happy meal from zhenliang
actually i think i did bet with him about grading or something, but i cant remember exactly what is it... XD
and of course, i had my nice nice icecream from sebas!!
1 more icecream to go!!!
and 1 more sunday from pang zi low!!
:D
good good night
it's going to be FRIDAY!!!!
dozing off at
2010/04/25
just another sunday
i keep a lot of old songs inside my ipod
people laugh at me while brosing through my playlist
it's okay, i love those old songs
for example, the one you are listening right now
i like songs with lively drum beats
i like songs with with whistles at the background
i like happy songs
i dont like those emo songs, or i am missing u i want to kill myself songs
i like peppermint
i like chocolate peppermint i like peppermint chocolate
if strawberry is my favourate girl flavour, then peppermint would be my favourite guy flavour
i've go no more strawberry milk for me to bring to work tomorrow
:(
it's going to be a sad day
dozing off at
2010/04/22
sebas owe me 4 icecreams already :D
when i am at taekwondo training
i just want to run around, kick here kick there
i dont want to eat, but i still follow
because i dont want to go back early
i dont want to go home alone
i dont want to sleep, i want to play
but the moment i reach home
i am dead >_<
so tired :(
dozing off at
2010/04/21
the demo on first day was totally awesome
i enjoyed so much for being a fake black belt :)
chom chom was fun too :D
by having 3 half days in a row make this week pass very fast
how i wish every week would be like this
let's train hard from this thursday onwards, seriously!!
i hate it when people look down on me
i've got a battle to fight tmr
against all the jay chou fans
the tickets shall be mine
please wish me good luck
aza aza fighting!
dozing off at
2010/04/19
no matter how upset or depressed i am, taekwondo always brightens up my day
dozing off at
this is not fun at all dozing off at
the blog counter shows 8991 now dozing off at
we are so going to do this when we are in a hotel room
dozing off at
i am so so so so so sleepy dozing off at
i took this picture at work so long ago.. it was still the first week of work i guess?
and the guy on my calculater cover, yes he is jay chou!!!
Mr wong visited yesterday he promised to bring me some snacks to work.. =/ i asked for pizza, but he said he will bring snacks, i should have asked for something better... anyway, he didnt bring.. as expected... he said i seems to be happy, cos whenever i chat with him, there was a lot of :) :) :D maybe because he chatted with me while i was at home? i am really happy to stay home now.. my work is simple, i love it.. but there is some other thing that sux.. i go to work everyday in fear... and that's why, even though i am tired, super sleepy, but i still go to taekwondo after work taekwondo makes me happy :D monday and thursday have been the favourite days of my week for 3 year, and it will always be my favourite.. <3 time to go for kee swee kuey chap! :D dozing off at
this is a very sad news that i found out on the web he's barney!! how can he be gay? =.= alright, i am shutting down again... woots, we are going to eat kee swee kuey chap tmr!! i have been craving for kee swee kuey chap for sooooo long... i guess he dont read my blog, so it's okay if i say it right? we will still be able to surprise him tmr. :D dozing off at
seriously, i think you know very well that there's something wrong between us dozing off at
how long does it takes to recorver from a break up? dozing off at
ok, my legs are actually sore dozing off at
i traveled the whole island with alvinn today dozing off at
i've just received my first pay from infineum ++++++++++++++++++++++ btw, i really really get scared when i have to take bus with someone that i dont really know.. just like my dearest dearest friend it makes me nervous and dont know what to do what to say... i am so scared of that silence... phew~ scared the shit out of me... dozing off at
barney and robin~ how sweet... dozing off at
i so want to get one of those t-shirts with a bikini printing on it dozing off at
i am so glad that i took the half day leave to go back school
not only i get to escape from my work, but also, to spend some time with my lovely taekwondo mates
i went to sleep with du lan-ness last night
woke up in the morning with du lan-ness... i was almost late for work
ALMOST
scared the shit out of me.... (<-- i love to say use this sentence to describe my scareness)
felt better after talking with my twin through emails at work
and the du lan-ness was totally gone when i was back at school
the school is the as crowded as ever, even though i wasnt there
i miss ngee ann
i miss sleeping inside the nice and cool lecture theatres
i miss seeing kee swee's ever so hungry face
i miss doing my FYP at library level 4
i miss the coldness in my hands everytime before i do a presentation
ngee ann is such a nice place, lucky kids still got 1/2/3more years to spend at ngee ann
my twin praised on my fluency of using vulgarities through email today
i am proud of my tiny improvement :D
there wasnt much of "my type of guy" signing up to taekwondo
or there was none of "my type of guy" ever appeared
i seriously dont like guys who dyes their hair, or wear shitty coloured t shirt with meaningless words/logos (the new NP S&W shirt was kind of shitty grey, me no like it)
i love white shirt guys... <3>
maybe this is part of the reason why i love taekwondo, everybody wears white during training
white shirt guys are sooooo awesome!
taekwondo is super awesome!
haiyu is the most awesome of all!
<3
2010/04/18
this is not fair at all
not everything in my life can be "reset"
sorry i didnt metion that cannot refresh the page to get 9000
i thought it was common sense not to do it
it's okay, let's wait for the 10000th visitor
i will refresh to that number before anyone else does it
thanks for entertaining my boring night
i feel like crying now
du lan du lan du lan
i have not done this lame thing for a while
and to be honest, i had never managed to do this successfully
but again, please
please tell me if you are the 9000th visitor of my blog
i just want to know
please please please
(it will be great if you print screen and tag me on facebook too, but if you are too lazy ,just write on the tag board!!)
there is this creepy guy who keeps XXXXXX all my XXXXXX on my XXXXXXXX
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek
woots, bed jumping will definitely be awesome
and we will snap like 1000 pictures when we are jumping around :D
haiyu love to jump when we are taking pictures
i remembered this girl cos she was on a prize presentation with kim hyun joong
my hyun joong is as cute as ever... <3
时而安静，时而疯狂
时而邪恶，时而善良
时而脆弱，时而坚强
i am falling asleep at any time
we were supposed to have our group chatting session today
but, they are all watching the stupid ball game now
eeek, who would want to watch a chelsea game?
haiyu dont like them
i cant take it already... i am fighting so hard to keep my eyes open -_-
everybody took their turn to take nap, other than me
and, since we all got things to talk to each other, why cannot talk first?
or talk while watching the match?
why must wait till 3am then start talking, then picking on me again, not letting me sleep...
ya ya, just sleep at 6am in the morning, i will be fine... when i got to get back to work on monday, i will be just fine
today is a lousy day
i just did the 2 things i hated the most
play mah jong and watch soccer
ok, at least i had eaten my pineapple in the way i wanted
but still, no sleep and doing nothing is killing me
2010/04/17
i didnt bother to bring a pen holder, slowly i am bringing more and more stuff to work... i'm afraid that on the last day, i might have to get a paper box and ask norman to help me carry it.. LOL
i dont know why i dont have one on my desk
i wonder where did YY and ah kok put their pens?
i put mine in the toilet paper roll
once i spilled water on my desk, lucky i had my pen holder down there XD
ha~ this cup has a long story
but anyway, a nice guy "loan" the cup to me... i only had my plastic bottle with me at that time, he was like saying... you know when the plastic cup and the hot water contacts, and then all the polymers will be released... blah blah blah
chemistry, i dont understand =/
there is still the colourful "haiyu" inside, written by my dearest friend
she did wrote "i love SL" on my calcualater too, when we were just secondary school kids
i think i got irritated when people keep asking me who is SL who is SL, and they gave that kind of "oh.... so it's a girl" look when i told them SL is my girlfriend..... i rubbed it away
but friend, you know, i love you <3
2010/04/16
2010/04/12
can u stop irritating me and just let me be alone for a while?
go ahead and do the things you want to do... go to the places that you want to go
i dont intend to, and i got no right to stop you
but if everytime we talk, there is some awkward feeling, then shut up and stop talking to me
once, i was regreted for saying all the mean things to you
but now, i am even more regreted for not being mean enough to keep you far far away from me
actually there was time for me to stay for dinner
but i was so afraid that i cant control my own emotion, and eventually i might punch you right in the face
i am not a good actor, i cant act as if nothing happened and talk to you normally
so stay far far away from me
i will never be like you... doing everything with a purpose behind
i really dont know how can you even talk to me after doing all these shit behind my back
sorry i cant trust you any more
please fuck off
2010/04/11
half the length of the relationship?
one week for every month you were together?
exactly 10000 drinks, however long that takes?
or...
from her bed to the front door? bang, out of there, NEXT!
the naked man episode, it was awesome!
i dont know was it from my jogging or was it from yesterday's walking
i had a long and tiring day
met up with alvinn at clementi's POSB
wanted to change my ugly and cui blue card to the black colour one
but if we do it at POSB, we would have to wait for it to be mailed to our home
whereas if we change it at the DBS, we can get it on the spot
so we walked to the DBS. and we were told we have to apply ibanking before changing the card
queued at the atm, took quite a while to figure out how to apply the ibanking thing
there was quite a lot of things to enter.... after alvinn was done with his, he was helping me.. and then there was an old uncle who shouted at me
"hello, the queue very long you know"
yes, i know, shout up and wait, douche!
while getting the black card
i have to change my finger identification to the signature
have to update the address....
on the card, my name was "desiree Jiang" how cool :D
went to the MRT... but the DBS called alvinn, *shrug* i dont know why they called alvinn instead of me...
i forgot to take my IC from the bank
so went out from the MRT, walked back to the bank, gotten my IC, and went back to the mrt again...
MRTed to chinatown, walked to the nice dim sum restaurant...
i had not eat such nice things for a while.. maybe every since my attachment started? or ever since my friend got all busy with her work?
after the meal, we went around the whole chinatown, looking for travel agencies which can provide bus service to sunway
and i need to get my visa to malaysia... not many of the agencies have such a service
when we finally found one, they need a passport size photo of me... i also have to update my address at the back of my IC
walked like 1 hour or so to search for the "nearest" police station.... and guess what, we walked allllll the way from china town to clarke quay!!
it was far!! huaking far!!
got my address changed, walked to clarke quay mrt, took the train to lavender, walked... again... walk and walk and walk... to golden mile complex
that was supposed to be a place where all the coach service company gathers
but it seems like little thailand to us
people were sleeping on the floor of the mall, there was no english signboards, everywhere was thai related things... the beer, the food, the people...
it's not as if i dont like them. just that it was very foreign to me and make me feel unsafe
so i always used the excuese of "think again" when my twin were tempted to book the coach tickets
i dont know, it just make me feel insecure
walked around the whole world, scared the shit out of me a lot...
ended up calling kee swee, checked the place that alvinn saw online.... great, we have to go Vivo
seriously, yesterday was my lucky day, we went out of golden mile, there was lots of tourism buses parked outside, the bus stop only had one SBS bus service
what bus was that? BUS 100, it brought us directly to vivo, avoided much much of the walking.... thanks god thanks budda thanks shen thanks everybody
booked the nice nice coach bus from harbourfront... (whenever i go there, i just remember how my friend told me that her father called that place "world trade centre".. i kind of miss her a lot..)
maybe the bus was a bit more expensive than we expected, but we get to spend a longer time in sunway.. plus, the agency looked real cool, they have yellow wordings on black wall... WOW, that's really a very nice combination of colour...
so, mission completed!
here comes the best... oh no, the second best part of the day [the best part was when i was starving, and i had the awesome porridge at the dim sum place]
we traveled to 313, uniclo... i saw them having a one piece series shirts on the newpaper... wanted to go there since 2 weeks ago, but i dont dare to go alone... so i dragged and dragged
when i finally got to the shop, there were only L and XL sized shirts left
worse of all, they were all men size... me wears a man size XS would be just nice, S is a bit big, but still acceptable...
L? no way....
but i just wanted that shirt so badly
well, it was my lucky day... i cant help it~
i saw this giant shelf in the store, with maybe 5,6 levels of shirt laying on it
close to the ceiling, there was a one piece shirt, exactly the one i loved
so i asked one of the assistance to help me check out the size of the shirt
YEs YES, you knew the answer.... it was a size S
whooooooooooooooo
walked around a bit...
had dinner at the "hand burger" i was kind of craving for burgers cos i just watched the episode about burgers in "how i met your mother"
it was a long and tiring day
there's always long distanced walkings when i am going out with alvinn
we always seem to be finding some place....
but never had such a long walk before... this is definitely going to mark a day
i am so looking forward to our sunway trip
it's going to be legend...... wait for it............ dary!!
:D
my legs are literally dropping off now... literally!
but, somehow, i feel i am very lucky today
i'll tell my lucky story tmr morning when i wake up
<3
2010/04/05
WOW, my hard earned 469.57 dollars
i like my life as an intern at infineum
i like sleeping early and waking up early
talk about sleeping early... it's time to sleep~
2010/04/04
i just wana be with her... all the time
i wana hear about her day, tell her mine
i wana hold her hands, smell her hair
but i dont wana be her stupid boyfriend
it's just awesome~
barney and robin!!
i dont like the stella that ted was dating
i didnt like it much when ted was dating robin
i hope ted marry victoria
she seems to be the nicest of all the girls... my type~
and guess who never see starwars before?
Haiyu :)
it's a working day tmr, i am shutting down
da da da dang~
2010/04/03
so so so want it
and i want to get a pineapple, cut it up and eat it
oh my..... "how i met your mother" is affecting me and my little peaceful life so much
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
ya, i am easily affected and easily influenced
used to be, i keep a distance from the taekwondo people
because of someone i trusted told me blah blah blah......
i know it wasnt a very smart idea
it's like.... even though in the begining, you know there's something wrong between you and this "friend"
but you still try to be friends with him
i'm always good with feelings of people... i knew what's going on exactly... just i dont want to face it
until i talked about it with my twin
i know i cant do this any more
i cant fakely pretend dont know what was he trying to do
i cant pretend dont know what he did or said behind my back
and then... there it goes~~ i'm back
the super enthu haiyu is back to taekwondo~
i go for every training, i be friend with everybody, i go for ever event that taekwondo has
i dont have to wait for people to join me for trainings
i can talk to anybody in the club
i just love taekwondo
i cant stop myself going to taekwondo
it's a miracle that i survied three years in taekwondo
it's still continuing...
i was thinking yesterday, maybe even if i started working, i will still go back
to train myself, to keep me fit, to see the pangzi and eat dinner with them
taekwondo is just great
i miss those times that we jog on the track every training
i was always lagging behind, but it's so sweet to see people waiting for me...
and they give me a push and force me to go on....
it's really nice to see the seniors come back in their army shirt.... even though too tired to train themselves, but still taught us....
there's this some kind of very warming feeling that brings up all the smile on my face when i say
"i practise taekwondo"
ya, ya... and there was this story on thursday
i always put my taekwondo stuff in a shoe bag.. a nice liverpool shoebag :D
and when i left the office, i forgot to take my shoebag!! :O
when norman asked me "where's your shoebag?"
all i could thought of was "fuck fuck fuck, what to do, i left my shoebag in the office"
indeed, that was what i said all the time on the bus "fuck fuck, fuck, how can i forget to take my shoebag" :S (it's hard to control)
it was the one last training before my grading on sunday
and i seriously need that time to practice my patternS
i cant skip the training, i cant train without my gi
i swear there was tears in my eyes for a moment
luckily, my superviser was still in the office
she helped me to take the shoebag, and then give me a ride to the bus stop...
if not, i would have to wait for the bus to go back in the office at 5:30, come out at dont know what time... and be really really late for training
it wasnt about the troubles that i have to go through, it's just that i dont want to miss out the time that i get to spend with Taekwondo
i know i know
i am always so lucky~ as i said, the big guy up there just loves me
<3
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
i am going for my grading again
this sunday~
if everything goes OK, i am going to be a black tip, just one more step away from my dreamed black belt...
i am super not confidence this time... didnt really have the time to practise my basic kicks, and have to memorise 4 patterns at the same time
it's kind of difficult
but still, i hope everything goes well
i really really dont want to waste my time and S$25
i truely truely truely wants to be a black belt by july
please~
good luck to me
even gooder luck than my ENV? CPTC?
hope it will the best luck ever~ sa jang!!!
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