2011/07/23

I always thought it was just a retarded one sided imature crush of mine. Till my ipod played your song. My heart actually brightened up at this shity moment.

How not to be sad?
I kinda of know now....

Fall fall fall fall fall fall fall falling you

dozing off at 7:15:00 AM

2011/07/13

I told you before, never ask questions like "what have i done wrong?" "Why am i not good enough for you?"
If i really answer these questions, you will start to describe me as evil and mean.

Yes, there are small things that piss me off, and i will throw my temper all over.
Yes, i never tell you why am i angry with you, but i will go around the whole world and tell everybody else.

Go ahead and tell me that i am gonna regret about all these. I have been always this cruel, this cold blooded, this mean, this bad tempered. But i have never regret for being who i am now.

Let's see who is gonna regret about this.
And guess what, there is no such thing as second chance in desiree's world.

Jerk, all the best :)

dozing off at 7:15:00 AM

2011/07/04

First time over the past 6 months, i dont even dare to look at my passengers in the eyes.
It is definitely my fault, i got no one else to blame. But i didnt do all these in purpose.

I know it is too late to say that i want to make it up to the company, the rest of the crew and the passengers. But still, the deep guilt truely stabbed me right in the centre of my heart.

It is my duty and responsibility to bring my 180 passengers from one place to another safely and on time. If possible, make it a pleasant flight for them. When i fail to do so, i just feel so useless. Feel that i have upset them badly.

Right now i kind of hate how careless i am.

It has been a bad day for me.
I cried 4 times over this "small issue". Trust me, i didnt meant to let all these to happen.

Give me bad roster, mak

dozing off at 5:37:00 PM

2011/07/01

So much has happened since my last blog, or rather just since i moved out of hougang.

Firstly, bye bye worker's party
The legendary me has finally completed staying in north south east west part of this island. I am cool, i know right.

I was surprised to have so many turned up at my little house warming session. But it was so nice to have a house filled with the people i love <3 I know what are the most important things in my life. I really treasure what i have. And i want to hold on to all this till 2012. The new place. It is very fine. It has everything i need. Convinient to go work, places to eat at late night, and most importantly, someone who is really caring to stay with me. She has been making a lot of fried rice for me lately. Before she go work, or before she goes to bed. I feel so xing fu to have my home made fried rice with me onboard. Maybe this is why i dont ever need any boyfriend, my friends can always fulfill my needs. Why bother to get some more trouble for me? True, i am much further from my beloved ngee ann. But, since i choose to grow up, when i am having new things in my life, i have to let go some of the old ones. And i think i should talk about my sick lymphs. Too bad i didnt had the chance to have some h 2 h (my dearest dearest friend taught me this phrase, like yi ge cool gay to use it) talks with pinkie and twin at the house warming. But guess we will have one soon since twin is posted to some camp near me :D I am just a typical young adult. I google about everything that i was unsure about. And then this reminds of the thing that has been constantly going around in my head, death. I have been always working in the dangerous industries. Refinaries, aviations.

dozing off at 2:24:00 PM