CPTC is really making me snap
i feel like quitting school!!
shld i write a email to my mentor first? or straight away go to student service centre?
life has nv been this bad
i screwed my mid-term
i fail my first 2 logbook entries
i dont get to eat lunch on time...
and worst of all, i am learning NOTHING
maybe there's a future for me to look forward to??
doing FYP with a class that i cant work with....
it's not i dont bother about CPTC
i really tried.... the hardest try since i entered CBE... thinking this might be a turning point where i actually start to like CBE...
i tried not to sleep in CPTC... the total time of me sleeping inside CPTC, cant even make up for my one day's sleeping time in NP
but still, i am not doing well
i know my brain is not designed for chemicals
but i thought hard work might get paid sometimes??
i am not the only one that is lazy
my luck has been bad
got seperated from my own class, get a super slacky trainer, get the worst timing for shift work... so much and so much .....
nobody actually cares about how we survive in CPTC
there are just so many "not fair"s that i could do nothing about it
i feel like it's so hard to breathe
since i am so sux at it, must well just stop trying so hard and enjoy my life there
i shall watch one piece for the whole night, and sleep in lecture tomorrow :D
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btw, yesterday's pasta turned out to be quite good
at least there wasnt any leftovers :D
i am happy abt that
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2009/09/26
i have fallen in love with black & white
so searched for my photoes over the years... just to change them to black & white
i look so cool
:D
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this was still at the west coast home..
i think my emo shirt was cute
just shifted to bukit panjang
yes, i love my headphone
me <3 flyer
finally something with colour
i love the earing that my friend has given me
but i bleeded the first time wearing it
it was heavey
i have to pay a price for acting cool... i know ... sobs... pain pain
i miss my friend
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2009/09/24
when haiyu ends all her sentences with "hahahaha" that means she's under the influence of alcohol
the rayzor way of testing is haiyu high or not
rayzor "what's your name?"
me "haiyu"
rayzor "what's your name?"
me "jiang haiyu"
rayzor "what's your name?"
me "haiyu haiyu haaaaaaaiyu la!!"
rayzor: confrim high already, if it's the usual her, she wont ans me in the first place.... she will just say "fuck you, you dont know my name meh?"
hahahaha
:D
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2009/09/21
2days no chocolate :(
sad sad
there are so many things going on at one time....
so many things happening at work place
making me feel so tired
i dont know why..... there are a lot a lot a lot ppl at flyer today
the whole place was flooded with people
and sadly i was at the place where i fear the most---- echo 3 O_o
the place where everybody will come here and begin their sentence with "can we go in by ourself?" or "can we have a private capsule?"
sad to say, i always have to reject them
ever since i started to work, i cant see the end of ppl q-ing at level 3
the whole place was packed and jammed
and i was very very stressed
all the human beings are just selfish
they dont care how many ppl are waiting behind them, they just want to get what they want
and there are racisit bastards who dont want to take together with this, together with that
yes, they always have a choice
dont want to take with someone? can~~~ so from 11person in 1 capsule, it changed to 23
see which one u prefer lor~~~
and i feel like i am aplogizing for every small bit of things
sorry to keep you waiting
sorry the next capsule is for dinner only
sorry no picture taking here
sorry please keep away from the railing
sorry i cant do that
sorry the capsule is on a sharing basis
sorry pleas move in
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i did nothing wrong, but i always have to say sorry
me no like this
and
i miss my cao ah mat
i want to see how he look like now now NOW
i shall go sleep now
i am super tired
didnt get much sleep yesterday night
actually only sleep at 6am in the morning
i am going out with junhong later :D
weeeeeeeeee
it's going to be a good good day
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2009/09/15
i have to say, i am actually enjoying this
not really the CPTC part, but for being busy
when i have to tell ppl, sorry i am very busy, no time to do this no time to do that
it feels good
however, the other day at flyer, just a short conversation
she:can you work on XXday?
me:No i cant
she:why?
me:have to do shift work
she:so?
me:cos the the thing
she:what what what?
me: we have
she: what we? just work la
that moment, i seriously feel like quitting this job!!!!! yes, i always feel like to
but at that point of time
it's like i am forced to work
no matter how much money i earn
studying still should be my first priority
even if they pay me S$10/hr, i cant skip CPTC to go work
it's not really a choice, i dont have a choice
result is coming out soon soon
i am scared to the max :)
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2009/09/11
i ran, and i sweat
i streched, and felt like the old me is back
the jogging only took 25mins
but i think abt it for more than 25 hr
i'm glad that i'm actually brave enough to jog alone
i want to be strong
i'll train hard if i ever have the chance again
now, it's sleeping time
i shall complete my logbook by tmr :D
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2009/09/10
i am saying this here
if one day i am late for CPTC, and is still a few stops away from the MTR at 11:15
dont wait for me
just drive off without me
i cant take the pressure of letting 50 over ppl wait for me
it's okay
dont wait for me
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i officially dont like CPTC
really, i cant see any fun of this AT ALL
i have to wear the coverall
i have to wear a stupid halmet... and then gooles... but thanks to Celest, she gave me her googles, which made me look less stupid :D
the worst part was....
i didnt get to eat a nice lunch today!!!!!!
an hungry man is an angry man
and haiyu is 10 times more angry than the average man-s
must let haiyu eat... if not she will burn down the whole place if that is what it takes for her to get the meal
everything about CPTC was a lie
ppl said it was fun, but it's not fun for me
ppl said the food sux, but it's acceptable to me
ppl said things will get better when practical starts, but it is still deadly not fun
sometimes, i sleep and dream of the whole jurong island being blowed up
then ppl gather at chinese garden, telling me there's no training today
i smile in such dreams :)
i dont know where to get food after 9:30
the whole bukit panjang sleeps at 9pm i think...
so i ate happy meal for dinner :)
but i cant eat this everyday... hope i could find something else tmr
again, i just feel like being a hippo
so that i could do nothing all day but eating
and yet ppl will say "sooooo cute!!" when they see me
i'm meeting alvinN and swee for breakfast tmr at 9:30
i shall go sleep now
good good night to all :)
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finally i get to watch final destination 4 :D
with alvinN and kee swee
it was nice
just as bloody as i expected it to be
say me bian tai say me sick say me cruel say whatever you want
i like that movie
from tmr onwards.... CPTC will start at 12...
and ending at 8pm!!!!!!!!!
OMG
just thinking about this, i feel sian sian sian sian to the max
i wont spend my time with my dear classmates any more :(
i hate this
maybe i should have taken CPTC with the other sem ppl
at least i am not scared of them >_<
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2009/09/08
i used to be so young
so small
and so cute
this is the me which was only 100days old
such a cute baby :D
and then one day, i met my twin sister
so cool!!!
i'm not old... i am just more mature than the rest of you
yes, i am mature :D
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another random picture showing how stressed this new reporter in japan is
poor guy
aging so fast
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and then, there's something that has stuck in my throat for a while
i really feel like saying it out loud
but i wont get to meet that bastard soon, or maybe i wont be meeting him again ever
so i shall just type it out here... just in case i forget about what type of faggot he is... i can always come back here to read this :D
YOU CAN SAY WHATEVER ABOUT ME... SAY IT ALL YOU WANT... AND PLEASE SAY IT BEHIND MY BACK.. COS I DONT WANT YOUR RUBBISH TALK TO BOTHER ME.. I'D LOVE TO STAY UNDISTURBED FROM YOU...
AND THEN, when you are talking... please choose the correct people... apprently, you are bitching about me with the wrong people... whenever you talk about me, people come and tell me
i think you should pray hard that you wont get to meet me again... whereever it is... it will be good for you... i cant ensure your safety if you ever piss me off again... i am so not interested in playing politics with retards......... YES, I AM SAYING THAT YOU ARE A RETARD
you look like one, you behave like one :D
you better stay away from me, you pussy!!! you fucking foggot!!!!! i am leaving this place anyways... i can do whatever it takes to irritate you... or rather, u kids call it "bully"... beat me up if your mum have taught you this
i cant wait to see you again :D
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ever since 6 sep... the word"forever21" starts to have some meaning to me
i am officially 21
cannot run away from this any more :(
i know i have not come here to blog for a while
but then, i still love my blog :D
i was out with alvinn on sunday
cabbed to orchard to meet him... cos i was late for the movie UP
yes, it's until sunday then i get to watch this awesome movie
it's so super cute..
just like me :D
hee....
then, to waste time, we walked around a bit
went to queue for the takoyaki at ION (who said i dun know how to spell queue? i know okay?)
it was worth the q-ing time(it took less than 5mins anyways )
and then, under the supervication of alvinN... i was forced to pierce my ears
i remember that we had the "deal" of pierce my ear while we were studying at starbucks for REng... study makes me all crasy
that's why i made such a stupid deal with him... just to eat some icecream
:(
my ears were burning...
it was funny...
not really pain, but like someone is pinching my ears really hard
my perfect ears :(
and this is the long craved sea salt flavour icecream
it's awesome
but it tasted different from last time
it's not that "salty"anymore
i miss the salt :(
and then, the second serving
kiwi wasnt a good choice
but the other one was great!!!
me love icecreams
and this is alvinN's icecream
when he just took the icecream, he said "i have a feelign that this may fall off"
then, like 30secs later, the thing REALLY FELL OFF!!!!
OMG
that was so cool
it's just like final destination....
the thing really happened!!
so maybe all the icecream would start falling one by one
i want to watch final destination la!!!
watch leh watch la
dont be a sissy boy, just watch it from gap in ur fingers with me!!
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a random picture which i think it's cute
i am so amused
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