2010/01/27

真的会很想要问，为什么想要瘦下来是这么难的一件事？
my diet plan has never been working well
everyday, there would be some excuses that i find for mysef to eat


my real diet will start from tmr
i dont want to give myself any chance to eat junk food any more
i'll bring my own sandwitch to school~~ i know i am so cute :)
i really hope that i can be shou



这种生活，我真的很不开心
尤其是讨厌看到你屏幕上那朵刺眼的绿色
今天还对你说出了 “你想回家就干脆回家算了”这样的话
心里虽然有点过意不去，但实在很难不生气。。。 真的不想做也能理解，可是至少随便开个什么文件装装样子啊
不要每次我被可恶的作图折磨得半死，回过头问你东西，你都要我说三次才听得到
我知道男生玩游戏都是这副死样子
可是我们还有东西要做，看到你玩玩玩，无时无刻都在玩，真的会七窍生烟


偶尔，你说话也很伤人
你是我的克隆体，明明就应该跟我一样小心翼翼
为什么就偏偏那么神经大条，说些不在意却刺痛心灵最深处的话
你说了那些话，会不会像我一样 觉得过意不去呢


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就算让我知道我永远只是单恋
我也会藏着感谢，笑着和你说再见


没什么，只是好久没听到这一首
心中还有一点对于过去的小感触

完毕
谢谢

dozing off at 11:54:00 PM

2010/01/25

everyday on diet is like fighting a war
carbohydrates are just everywhere

today was a sinful day
but it was also a xing fu day

ikea meat balls are just as awesome as ever~~~



and, finally we passed up our FYP report
half of the work has been completed
true satisfaction has been achieved.. i would have to say... FYP was the most awesome project that i had ever done
of course, the main reason was because i had a great team~

you will never work alone :)



muscle aches are still torturing me :(
i walk like some 80 years old grandma
i was looking at hyun joong's photo.... he used tobe a poom belt when he was young...
wondering was he a good fighter back then... tsk tsk, how can i ever doubt him... he MUST be good~~

i seriously dont know what else can i do for my dear taekwondo?
fight or dont fight?
was i serious when i said "i will never wear this padding again... cos i dont want to give people chance to kick me" was i?
give me sometime to think

i dont want to fight just because this is my last chanc to fight
i hate the kind of unprepared feeling
i know how lousy i am compared to my peak periods
i dont want to get myself killed

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i dreamed of you while sleeping on the bus
but i dont see you when i wake up
i feel disappointed :(

dozing off at 10:21:00 PM

D-DAY D-DAY D-DAY

still another this friday will be the next D-DAY



goo luck to me and my beloved FYP groupmates






i finally can breathe

dozing off at 11:21:00 AM

2010/01/24

fianlly i am back home from the tkd camp.... dying from the muscle ache...
i would consier this camp as one of the worst camps that i ever attempt
not in terms of the fun/training part
just my own emotions

i didnt bring shoes to the camp....
i dont really have a pair of running shoes... and i dont think it worth the money for me to buy a pair just for one day usage....
i was punished to run 0 rounds on the track, approximately 4k
bare footed

it was shoik
i had never completed more that 2 rounds before
but this time... i ran without stopping for 5 rounds
when i am pushed hard enough, i can do it~ i feel satisfied after running
the burning feeling under my feet was shoik too~


this reminded me of the ancient times of TKD
where we always lined up in 2 rows, running together before evry training
though i was at the begining of the line, i always and always and always lag behind slowly
a lot seniors pushed me to run
nice memories of TKD <3


sometimes, your own thinking scres you the most
i always know that i am not really talented in taekwondo... i know i am not strong
but i dont want to face the fact
i wanted to be strong.... i tried my best and everything
and i thought i became stronger
but 1 day, it was just too shocking to know that all the effort had gone to waste
i am still not strong at all
the truth sometimes hurts the most

i really jealous of other people who actually sparred today
especially those who didnt do well
they had the motivation or rather the guts to fight
i dont have

i dont have the confidence for myself
i dont think training hard from now will be able to make me good
mentally, i am so not ready for this

i will still carry on with my plan of losing weight
my no carbo intake plan was spoiled during the camp
:(
i ate bread i ate a lot a lot of rice
:(
fast food is a sin from now onwards
i dont want to be qiang any more... i want to be shou only


p.s. thanks junhong for listening to all my complains
thanks moon for chatting with me atnight... girls talk rox!!
thanks everybody for comforting me/promising to train me/stay lousy together with me~
thanks alvinn for the support... if really i can be good, i'll invite you guys to come and see my match... just that, i cant even face the failure myself.. how can i let others see i fail?

no such thing as 100% winning
so, i am just being usoop
running away from any possible danger

i know, i am uselessly weak



the most lucky thing of the whole camp was..... I SAW A SHOOTING STAR! TOTALLY AWESOME
i made a wish
hope it realy comes true :)



i need to sleep
i am so tired
deadly tired

good night, my world


当你微笑，全世界都在陪着你微笑
当你哭泣，全世界只有你一个人在哭泣

dozing off at 6:51:00 PM

2010/01/22

facebook show u everything man!
i am so curious about what happened in other groups
morethan willing to watch them fight/quarrel >:D

yes, there are hell a lot of work need to be done
FYP report, 25 jan
WISP report, 25 jan
Effective nego presentation, 25 jan
lab report, 27 jan
icp test, 28 jan/4th feb
FYP presentation, 29 jan
WISP reflection, 29 jan
unit op test, 4 feb
lab test, 11 feb
env presentation to be a surprise

this is the crasiest time ever!!!!!!!!!!


lucky, my FYP team is as cool as ever
yes we are far behind time
(when kee swee told me this, i was like... are we?)
we are burning mid night oils
we are stressed
we are busy with CCAs
we are sleeping a lot during lecture times

but we are still happy when we are together


i seriously dont have a lot of friends
i really hope that we could stil be this happy when we see our FYP results

i love all my friends
i love my FYP groupmates
i love my dearest dearest friend

dozing off at 12:59:00 AM

2010/01/20

i had wore that pants quite a few time before shifting the house
i was air-conditioned back then...
yesterday, i took out the pants, washed it togethr with my taekwondo gi... thinking i coul wear the pants during my camp
when i opened up my washing machine half an hour later, i got so shocked!! my eyes really was like o_O

both sets of my taekwondo gi, were in the colour of sky blue (one of them was brand new.. i was washing just to make it softer)
both set evenly dyed... with the nice blue colour
no choice, i got no bleach at home... i hang them up...

woke up at 9 this morning, just to go get the bleach
soaked them for the whole day
when i'm home... both of the gi are pleasantly white

i love to wear white coloured shirts...
just like my hyun joong in the show...

i kind of miss the blue coloured gi now... they were so nice looking :(
maybe i should have taken some picture of them

one more thing... i am enjoying it more and more for having a twin cousin
he's the evil twin. i'm the guai kia :)


good night, my world

dozing off at 11:46:00 PM

2010/01/19

the tuesdays are always full of muscle aches. so hard to drag myself out of bed
but it's kind of satisfying...
the feeling of getting stronger is the aching of muscles

i trained hard on all the mondays. :)
it feels like i was still the year 1 kid.. having my endless good mood at TKD training groud

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yesterday night, after my meal at BTM, jun hong accompanied me to go home
and guess what
WE TOOK THE WRONG BUS
we have been that school for almost 3 years... even though i did stay at bukit panjang at first. but there shouldnt be a problem .....
i saw the number 7, so just board thebus
minutes later, realise that we took the wrong bus :(

walked all the way back to the same bus stop
missed one bus home
waited and waited.... then got home...

that stupid guy, nv see the bus number
make me take the wrong bus :( fivepunches on the arm!!

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people just love making fun of twilight
though i read the four books, doesnt mean i'm a fan of twilight
i really enjoying seeing all these :D
ROFL


see, i told u long time ago....
i dont mind they two being together... but robert is just not good enough for taylor
=\

dozing off at 2:59:00 PM

2010/01/17

其实每一个人都是乌索普。
胆小，悲观，说谎话
路飞？那只是一个太阳，全世界也许只有这么一个，或许一辈子都碰不上。
最真实的还是乌索普，那个胆小懦弱又爱自夸的男人，就像我们每个人的缩影。
他没有路飞的勇敢，香吉士的风度，索隆的铁血，但他是最生动的那抹色彩。
他不代表谁，他代表了每一个平凡的看客

面对困难挫折，我们每个人都是那个乌索普。
我们没有吃过恶魔果实，我们没有变态般的超强身手
我们总是很绝望，总是很想逃避

嗯，我们没有远大的理想，只希望自己能够更勇敢一点点

乌索普，其实也很棒

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沙僧最常说的话~~~~~~~~~笑到内伤了~~~~~~~

沙僧：
1.大师兄~！师傅被妖怪抓走了！
2.二师兄~！师傅被妖怪抓走了！
3.大师兄~！二师兄被妖怪抓走了！
4.大师兄~！师傅和二师兄都被妖怪抓走了！



师傅，大师兄说的对
大师兄，二师兄说的对
二师兄，大师兄说的对
大师兄~我们在这儿呢~
二师兄，你怎么又要分行李？
师傅放心吧，大师兄会来救我们的
师傅，不能赶大师兄走啊
二师兄，这就是你的不对了
二师兄 你就少说两句吧


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thanks everybody, grading has passed smoothly
hope everything goes fine~
hope i will have to courage to participate in IVP

next week, is the last week to chiong our FYP
finally, the nightmare is coming to an end
we might have to camp at library everyday after school... :(
jia you jia you jia you

all the best for everybody and everything :)

dozing off at 9:37:00 PM

2010/01/16

15th jan 2010
is the official starting date of me reading one piece manga

it' s as awesome as the animation
i am happy that i can have it during the weekends, so that i can draw when i feel like~~~
take it as a short break from FYP
all the columns trays, stripping or feeding... fractional and continuous..
i dont knowthem at all
i hate doing them all


okay, some of my drawings.. though not so good at drawing, but i always would like to try.
it's top 3 of my fav things to do...
Zoro is always so cool
i like it when luffy was caught by the bird, and he have to roll the boat like shit to catch up with luffy
sooooooooooooo cute :)

of course, sanji is still the best without doubt

this is how he appeared in thebookat first

of course i have not reachd the part where sanji appear, but i cant stop myself from taking a peep at him

he only appeared at the ending of book 5~~ can wait to take book 6from swee next week :D

first sanji that i ever seen <3>when it's drawing sanji.. i'm always extra careful and detailed

but as u can see.... i sux for drawing the hand part :P

and didnt take note of the length of my paper.... his legs are a bit too short XD he has longlegs just likemine

his kicks are super powerful, also just like mine~~~

a stolen photo

one piece真的超精彩的

情节紧凑，画面也很精致。超棒的超棒的

不输给少女漫画的水准哦

oh ya, and i realised the author, or u call him mangaist? was only 23 when he started this whole one piece thingy... so now, he's at most 33 to 35 years old.. my fear of him being too old/diX off seems like impossible to happen now.. still *touch wood* wohooo, young people rox~ maybe that's why he's taking so many breaks~~

when there is anything got to do with sanji... it became hard to control myself

good night world

i'm really tired i miss my chocolate so much :(

i will be going back to the flyer tmr ~~ weeeeeee

dozing off at 2:34:00 AM

2010/01/14

tested
nothing is wrong with me or the blog itself
just the blog skin is not working
maybe will try to make my own blog skin during the weekends



yeah, got it fixed...
just that everything is on the right now
it doesnt affect me
hyun joong ar~~~
<3 <3 <3

dozing off at 12:56:00 AM

the muscle aches are killing me now :)
i feel so xing fu + xin wei
the suan-ness means i am getting stronger, i am proud of this :D

when i was about to call my friend yesterday, i realise my friend has a super long name
i always thought that she's just know as "lee my dearest friend"
now then i know, she's actually "lee my DEAREST DEAREST friend" with a stupid kissing emoticon at the back
that's a super long name!!

and lucky i got keep evidence of us eating ding tai feng
how can u not believe me?
haiyu nv forgets
u shld be able to tell that, it's ding tai feng, and u are the person sitting opposite me
i dun have a picture with ur face in it
i told u that i took a picture of my nails right?
do u see ur old buddy? we used that phone to take so many pictures when we didnt have any camera .. how lovely.. <3

feedbacks of the mask that my friend pass to me
because i was scared, so i tested on my hands first, it was okay
then on my face, just a small area, still no ci ci de feeling.. :)
but it took veeeeeeliiiii long to dry up.. or did i apply too much?
BTW, i was very happy when i see it contains pineapple.. haha, my house :D


i actually dont want PED to come to an end
i dont want the exams to come
i dont want to graduate
i dont want :(

ngee ann 就像一个我深爱，却又得不到的男人
明知不能长相厮守，却依然舍不得离去~ 啊哈


今天早上的时候，突然很想吃煎饼果子
啊啊，你们都不晓得那是什么鬼对吧？
可是我真的很想吃~ 还有煎包，莆田煎包~~~

偶然看到抽抽小队长绑鞋带的样子
真的很好奇这孩子脑袋里都在想些什么。。。
囧囧有神的一个孩子啊

dozing off at 12:10:00 AM

2010/01/12

after posting a lot a lot of pictures, something went wrongwiththestupid blog
i'm lazy to edit anything
just let it be
which ever way that makes it happy


bed time
good night my world :)

dozing off at 12:15:00 AM

2010/01/11

wohooooooooo
i have not had such a fun fun fun training for verylong time
knowing very well that i will die from all the muscle ache tomorrow... i still willingly completed everything
ya, i tried to slack while doing some double turning shit
but was literally dragged back to training by bee siang :D

it's totaly awesome to have bee siang and gladwin as my partner
hahahahaha, i trained so much~ i'm so happy soooooo happy~

haha, junhong you lose out!!
today's training is fantastic!!!!
ops, i forget u cant see this, how's ur dead laptop?


i was actually supposed to practise my pattern half way
but this idea of " i'll go after this kick" just keep poping out in my head
i cant stop even if i'm exhausted
every kick is my favourite kick :D
seems like adrain always come down on mondays, i regreted for skipping so many monday trainings.. :(


and when it's turn to do pattern, i sux
as lousy as junhong :(
i repeated doing the same pattern in front of everyone for at least 4 times
still making the same mistake of shouting at the end...
dont know which hand to punch which hand to block
T_T
my body is so retarded sometimes...
oh ya, my back hook sucked as well... i have been seeing this kick as a killer
not to kill the opponet, but to kill me
i seriously need to practise more on that...
so diu lian... so diu lian.... Q_Q

i am so looking forward to the IVP camp on 22,23,24the now
looking forward to melvin sir's training :D:D:D:D:D
also, scared for 25... it's the D day...
oh nos.... why the good days must clash with the bad ones? :[


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i met a super creepy guy on the bus
when i just board the bus, he smiled at me... i thought he saw some friends, didnt really think there's anything wrong with him
but later, everytime i look up from my ipod, i see his retarded face smiling at me
i'm too tired even to raise my voice
i alighted at bukit panjang plaza, as he followed me.. =/
walked aroud for a while till he's gone...
so creepy~
reminds me of lance's story "xiao di ni yao bu yao gen wo zuo peng you"
eeek


i was late for wIsP today. (as usual)
but the teacher still smiled at me when i came in.. making me feel so guilty
i'll try not to be late next week
might be my last chance though... LOL


i'm meeting my dearest friend tmr
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

dozing off at 11:40:00 PM

2010/01/10

i know you all cant see my title of the post, i named this one "i think they are crazy, and i am so not one of them"

there are going to be a lot a lot a lot pictures in this post~
it took me quite a while to upload all the photos in my class

many of the picture were blur...
i'm not the one who took them~not my problem~~
[alvinN:"lester take one"]


pinkie kissing the dustbin

dozing off at 5:13:00 PM