2008/07/31

i was chatting with kee swee on MSN..

well for the fact that he was sitting right beside me at that moment

me loves to do that... chat with ppl on MSN even if we are in the same room

and i think i did MSN-ed kee swee msges lyk "tissue" before...

life is so LOL



i think i was really bored during TPHM...

that's why i draw-ed kee swee

:)

nice picture isnt it?


so looks lyk him man!!!!!

and his 招牌动作 ------ >_<




and then kee swee draw-ed me

=/

i have the same kind of expression as him?

nvm la.. at least i was smiling in his drawing..

:)




Kee swee was known as the monkey sweee

so i draw him as a monkey!!

so cute la~~~~~

dozing off at 11:52:00 PM

i dont knw where did i get the courage to wear that pair of purple colour stockings to school

i dont even knw why did i buy it in the first place.. =/ was me on drug?

yap.. it was purple.. the same kind of purple as my wordings here....


and.. people's response to my purple stocking

Mark: it's very eye catching
(best comment received so far)

Micro Stoll: that's a very....... (he stoped for 3 secs) bright colour
(okie... fine........)

Nazweeeee: AA
(yap.. and i got the A from all diff ppl for the whole day. -_-!)


kee shwee: funny
(and this guy really laughed at me for the whole day.... =/ was it really dat funny?)



++++++++++

tips to keep urself happy:

#1. eat tons of sweets/chocolates

#2. wear bright colours


i think i have been doing great in both..

:D

dozing off at 11:39:00 PM

2008/07/30

ya ya ya... it's finally ur D Day... not only u have been nagging at those ard u... even if i am so far away from you...


u still told me over and over again.... all those things abt derrick..


tsk tsk tsk... dont understand the kids nowadays.. how could they get so excited for spending $20? =/


+++++++++++++++


we have been gaying ard these few days


dont believe? look at our DPs...

ha ha.. that is so gay...


but i like it to be this way.. =)

++++++++++++++++++++

went to watch the dark night with Leeeeeeeeeeeee at the cathy today

nice show :)


i had not cried in the cinema for a very long time le.. some how i prefer tragedy comparing to comedy..

ya ya.. i love to pay $6 and let people make me cry..

and i was surprised to hear that 最近流行一个人看电影

W.o.W

i didnt knw that i was following the fashion so closely... LOL

we ate the $0.99 sushi today!


yap.. it was as sux as the previous time... the food is not nice de lo... the service also no good.. =/ still dare to charge me service charge nia...


i went there with alvinN for the first time.. after watching alvin and the chipmunks.. LOL

i still remember that i sms-ed Lee on that day saying "eeee, the 0.99 sushi not nice de"

and her ans to me was "i just told u it's cheap, i nv say it's nice what"


-_-!

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walked from cathy to HMV aft the movie

dat was such a long way to walk.. please la, i was wearing heels leh..

old woman lyk me shldnt have walked so far..


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i knw it's stupid to do this at the bus stop

but, i want to show my love whenever i got the chance... can?

i think i got this cube as my V day present :)

i still remembered that we went to vivo to watch 功夫灌篮 on 14th feb

okie.. we were absolute gays


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bought a new bag from fourskinstore...

their paper bags are soooo cool


see my huge carrier and lee's tiny carrier...

let's take a look of the stuff inside...



actually this bag was the last piece

somehow, i always get the last piece when buying things =/

shld i count meself as lucky?

there was some small imperfections on the bag

but... i really love it.. so still brought it home with me :)

this is me love... i just love it as the way it is... it looks perfect to me




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i knw i am very enclosed in my own world



i have came back to live on my own mountain :) living without receiving a single sms or phone call in the whole day





i will nv start talking to ppl on MSN.. (was surprised by the number of ppl chatting with Lee on her MSN..)

i wont talk to ppl about my problems unless they asked.... and if they ever start on such a conversation with me.. they will be hearing all my complains complains and complains... ha ha~~



BTW i just 主动 talked to Lee for the first time this week...

>_< cause she said that she wont talk to me again unless i start talking to her....

she threatened me to talk to her


i scared of her

i mean... i scare of her no talking to me


++++++++++++++++++++

maybe i shld stop taking all the music from the ppl surrounding me

alvinN's dragonforce songs are really noisy... maybe it's i dont knw how to appreciate..

whatever

it freaked me out when the noise of electric guitars burst into my ears....

=/


time to slp...

good night to all

dozing off at 10:57:00 PM

《疼爱》
萧敬腾


把疼爱都给你 把疼痛都给我

放开手是我最後的温柔

如果你能飞得 快乐自由

这疼痛 并不算 什麽

想挽留　却为什麽点头

我不懂　连我都不懂

我如果说的太少　爱的太多有

谁能够懂






+++++++++++++++++++

今天偶然遇到他，小聊几句

他说“你成熟了好多”

嗯。。 真不可思议，连那个最幼稚的江小鱼都成熟了好多


他呢，还是一样。。。 那么多叮咛嘱咐，那么的像个慈祥的长辈

告诉我要坚强，要照顾自己。 未了，总爱一次又一次的问我相同的问题。。。





这么久了，可我们都还记得，那个我大喊大叫的下午

他平静的对我说“女人说分手，只不过是为了被挽留。所以我不会让你走”

我忘了问他。。男人呢，是不是也一样？

可是，一旦挽留了，剩下的，是爱情，还是同情呢？



我很想哭
但是我已经哭不出

dozing off at 1:35:00 AM

i was forgotten

it hurts... when u are waiting for someone...

and by the time u call, he said "oh, i forgot abt you"


i felt so left out

i felt so forgotten

i felt so non-related to their world

i felt so.......


i dont knw.. i thought i had lost all my feelings long time ago



be ware of emo monster attack



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作曲：张杰 作词：张杰

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
彻别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

dozing off at 12:39:00 AM

2008/07/29

the first thing came into my mind when i woke up this morning

"muscle ache has came back to me"


arh arh arh.... whole body pain

pain here pain there pain pain everywhere =/



=( got headache

i think i sniff in too much aldehyde at the lab

some ppl find it pungent... to me... it smells lyk sour apple juice =)

so... while doing the testing of unknow solution, just with one sniff of the "apple juice" i knw it's aldehyde..

ha ha~~

but now... i got headache for sniffing apple juice =/

will me die?

=(




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:D changed my blogskin again!!

tuesday used to be my official day of pi changing

recently it has became a movie watching session....

i loved my old 皮 a lot a lot... dat's why didnt want to change

today really got nothing else to do... just change la~

++++++++++++++

别说你会难过

别说你想改变

被爱的人不用道歉

nice song.....

dozing off at 11:06:00 AM

scheisse! scheisse! scheisse!

this means shit in German :)


like all the girls... i also have started counting down

33 days left..


some how, i wish that i could leave this place as soon as possible

it will be the best if i dun have to come back ever again



haiyu's gona sit like a man.. (alvinN laughed at me when i sit like a man =/ )

haiyu's gona kick like a man


roar~~~

dozing off at 12:50:00 AM

finally bought my MP3 yesterday...

has been nagging at alvinN and mark over the past few days

"let's go bugis"
"let's go out"
"i want buy MP3"
"i want buy MP3"
"i want buy MP3!!!"

=/ sry.. haiyu is always irritating when she cant get what she wants


HY: "hey, check out this beauty"
vinN"i bet it's just an MP3"

=/


life is good with Music 就连死神都喜欢听音乐的。。 :)

plus i can always watch the IT crowd here and there... ha ha... it's just funny...




got myself a earpiece as well..

finally can get rid of the $2 earpiece... LOL


i love lime green :D


but one thing about sennheiser earpiece.... they always took ppl sometime to figure out how to wear it.. -_-!

and this curly thing cost $90 buggggggs... =.=

dozing off at 12:10:00 AM

2008/07/28

okie.. haiyu have learnt her lesson..

she always learn her lesson in the hard way.. =/


after all....

we have to accept the fact that we get to meet all the fuckers/bitches in our life...

and...

we cant help.. they just pop up out of no where


some of them want u to clean their shit

and some of them even worse... they shit on you


let it be man...

whatever... who cares? they are just fuckers


but one thing that we all should remember

whenever we meet the fuckers, FUCK THEM BACK!!

and make sure that they feel the pain pain in their ass..

best of all, they remember the pain for their whole life...




go ahead and ask me "what happened" "why u said all these" "who are u refering to"

i just wont tell you.

:)


i know i know... relax... stay calm...

-_-! i shldnt be saying so much cauz the thing doesnt really affects me...... i knw....


okie... okie...

:) one smiling face

:) two smiling face

:) three smiling face


u see..
i am really cool...

dozing off at 11:25:00 PM

dozing off at 3:24:00 PM

did not update since last friday... cauz i always felt sleepy.. need time to slp la~


the only lesson i have on friday was TPFF.. but i went to the lab in the morning to learn how to press all the machines..

practical exam coming nia~

well.. lab finished at 11am.. have to wait until 3pm just for my lecture...


nothing better to do, i went to Kranji with alvinn and swee to collect the newater for their I&E event...


didnt knw that ppl could just collect newater for free.. maybe it's because that it's just saizui.. dat's why they let ppl take for free..



LOL..

the MRT was quite empty..

and i realised i wear the lime green shades, i will get all the attention from the ppl in the MRT

great huh~


i was carrying alvinN's bag... and alvinn was carrying mine..

LOL LOL.. anybody wants to see his gay picture???

i lyk the way i look while i was carrying his bag..

swee said i look small sized.... =)



this is the PUB... yes, pub.. =]

dozing off at 2:42:00 PM

2008/07/26

maybe it's time to slp

it will be a long day tmr...


let's see how many 咩咩 jump over then fence

dozing off at 5:58:00 AM

it's not i dont want to sleep... i was waken up by a bird... who actually fly into my room

and it somehow lost the way out... cauz i did not fully open the window, and there are railings at the window.. so maybe the bird is a bit confunsed and lost its way

when i first realised that something actually dropped onto my bed.. i screamed...


yap.. in the middle of the night, and i screamed "arh"

but not a long one.. =)


after i realise that it's just a bird, i didnt care so much... i thought they could fly... and it's easy for them to find their way out...

but maybe i was wrong

it keep knocking onto the window, the mirror and the everything...

i was hiding under the blanket.. got once it knocked onto the window and droped right beside me..

really scared me man!!!!!!!!


i am scared of all the foreign objects... =/



i tried to open the window wider... which didnt help much.. i think it doesnt knw how to close the wing a bit when passing by the railing... (the space was rather small... have no idea how did it managed to come in sia)

when i turn on the light, the bird will just use it's full strength to struggle and knock onto each and everything.. =(

i am so scared dat it might die because of brain concussion...


i opened my door and praying that it will fly into the living room.. and hoping that it will find its way out at the living room

luckily it flied into a living room... and until now, it's still trying to find its way out.. i still hear the knock knock knock...


what YUI sang was so correct!!!!

"fly well"


-_-!


as soon as the bird is out of my room, i closed my door and window...


i cant take any more weird weird things flying into my room already...


i tried to sleep, but i cant sleep.... =( it really really freaked me out....

i nv turn on the fan or air-con

but i am really feeling cold... =(


while mum was still in singapore, she did told me before that once there was a pigon fly into my room...

and mum just grabbed it by the wings and throw it out of the window..

i wish i had the courage lyk her...




i think start from now, i will be closing my window at all times

and...

i am really scared of all those flying stuff.....


=(

dozing off at 4:49:00 AM

2008/07/25

seems lyk new stuff didnt work

LOL

LOL

LOL

dozing off at 10:46:00 PM

did i said that i wont be updating my blog today? did i? did i?

nvm... i will just update la.. anyway it passed 12 already, so it's a brand new day!!!!


i realised that hero has been getting slimmer recently

yap... hero as in the hero, my cute little hamster hero

to be honest, i cared more about uknow compare to hero...

i always love to grab uknow and talk to him, use his fur to wipe off my tears..

just because he is the fatter one

i love the fats on his tummy... so cute man!

but i still loved hero as well!!! sometimes, he is also used as tear wiper lo

i am so scared that hero might leave me someday

=(

then i got nothing to use to wipe off my tears le

i am really scared that in one morning, i might see his small cold hardened body lying at one corner of the cage

please dont leave me... my DLF.. =)

at least not now...

i cant take it if all the loved ones leave me at the same time

hang on a while more with me... please...


+++++++++++++

after receiving his sms today

i suddenly 想通 of everything le

the story has ended...

we wil nv get back to each other again


明天不一定会更好，但是明天一定会来

so... have to carry on with my own life


okay... as usual, i wont show my emo-ness to frens to make them worry

i wont show tears to anybody to give them the chance of laughing at me


想通了，就没有问题了

明天的事情 明天才说
现在......睡觉大过天


P.S: noob said that my rewind button is not working

i am sure that there is wind coming out, if u allowed windows to pop up from my page..

LOL

dozing off at 12:15:00 AM

2008/07/23

梁朝伟 终于 嫁给了刘嘉玲

20年的恋爱长跑，不懂到底是什么能让他们坚持到现在

我不懂的事情，太多了。。。


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somehow, i dun lyk to hear ppl saying "this is the only thing that u can draw is it"

just open ur eyes and see, what can i draw..

i can draw my whole world, the thing is, do you understand my world


long time no draw...

cauz didnt have the feeling for drawing for a very long time...

my drawing depend too much on my feeling..... sometimes, feeling just dun come to me for a very long time... no matter how many times i flip through my sketch book, it just not there... then cant draw =(


some random drawings done during lesson time:

that period of time my drawing tends to be very "monsterous"

dozing off at 10:35:00 PM

2008/07/22

据说，每一个仰望摩天轮的人，都是在仰望幸福。 摩天轮有多高，幸福就有多高。。

幸福，就该像摩天轮，一圈一圈的旋转，永远不停止


总之，要趁着新加坡的摩天轮还是“世界最高的摩天轮”的时候去坐一次
不然错过了，就没有了

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almost attacked by the emo monster today

it was so close to me... i heard its foot steps when he's walking towards me....

i can feel its heavy breath on my face...

i could smell the darkness diffusing out from his body

it stick out the cold paws and tried to drag me into the emo corner

i ran... ran far far away

i hide myself in the crowd

i knw it was still staring at me.. following me everywhere... waiting for that one chance to attack me and eat me up

i was too weak to attack the emo monster today


i grabbed onto my jacket.. trying to keep myself warm

i listened to happy songs...

the emo monster lost its patience and walked away


i knw i cant always live lyk this

if not sooner or later i would be eaten up by the emo monster


i need a emo monster hunter....




a happy song to keep the emo monster away from my window..

dozing off at 9:44:00 PM

first thing....

congrates to Strawberry Icecream for getting the double...

and now he gets the free meal from me... -_-!


while i also can get my free meal from him.... =.=


++++++++++++++


met up with "green tea icecream" today... (she insist that i shld call her this way)

we had spend lyk... $50 these 2 days... just for eating dinner.. =/

a snap of our chawanmoshi... in an onion... =)

finally eaten the 铁板烧 with green tea icecream... it wasnt that nice actually... and the serving was small..
(if haiyu says the serving is small, it is really small... trust me... )

we always meet up and eat nice nice food... which also cost nice nice money.. =(

we shld start eating buget from next time onwards....

[p.s: i was forced to blog about this]

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i was listening to 《世界末日》 just now..

alvinn pop up on MSN and said i shldnt be so emo... shldnt listen to such emo songs..

he said "u shld listen to this"

and guess what did he send me? "it ends tonight"

=/ was it better than my 世界末日？

maybe the world will end tonight... who knws...

i still finds this song as the best song to listen when i am emo

想笑來偽裝掉下的眼淚

點點頭承認自己會怕黑

我只求能借一點的時間來陪

你卻連同情都不給

想哭來試探自己麻痹了沒

全世界好像只有我疲憊

無所謂反正難過就敷衍走一回

但願絕望和無奈遠走高飛

天灰灰會不會讓我忘了你是誰

夜越黑夢違背難追難回味

我的世界將被摧毀

也許事與願違

累不累睡不睡單影無人相依偎

夜越黑夢違背有誰肯安慰

我的世界將被摧毀

也許頹廢也是另一種美

杰伦8月29号又要出新专辑了

一年，又这么过去了

dozing off at 8:58:00 PM

2008/07/21

since IS has came to an end ... monday has became free and easy time for me..


school became so slack nowadays... both monday & friday just 2 hrs lesson.. seems lyk i am enjoying a 4days weekend.. =)



love this kind of life.. and i love being a slacker..

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has done something really brave today...

i actually went to watch movie on myself !!!


nia... the ticket....

i really really wanted to watch this movie..

esp aft watching hellboy partI on this saturday..

but alvinN has watched it with mark and swee on friday.. neither jun hao nor Lee feels lyk watching it..

i cant think of any other ppl to watch movie.. i dun think anybody will invite me for movies also..

so..............

i went to woodlands alone

i queued up alone (alvinn said i dun knw how to spell queue which is bullshit)

i sat in the movie theature alone...

i laughed alone, i cried alone...

i walk out of the cinema alone....

alone doesnt means lonely.. i still feel the kind of coldness sometimes...

it wasnt as hard as i imagined...

actually i saw loads of ppl watching movie alone.. maybe shld try to make frens with them next time..

the first time in my 19 yrs of life-------wactching movie alone

i am so brave.. =)

i am so proud of myself... -_-!

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she has choosen him instead of the world..

he has kept his promises to her: always remain that good looking... and nv give up on her, forever....

=)

how nice

++++++++++++++++

has been living with a life of 1 meal a day...

i do feel sad when i think of her.. she might be laughing at me behind the screen =(

我好像，已经失去直视月亮的勇气

++++++++++++++++

strawberry ice-cream called while i was on my way home

telling me that he is 好像 getting his double..

=/

which means i 好像 have to treat him a meal...

++++++++++++++++

i thought i would be crying again when i talking abt it

lucky i was wrong... =)

next time if something bad happens i will cry on your shoulder until all ur fire die.....

i am back to me

ready to be happy...

ready to face everything.....

dozing off at 9:52:00 PM

i happened to be at the reservor today... i always wanted to take picture of that beautiful place.. and today finally got the chance to do so... =)

great view.. isnt it? =） 其实，分手并不可怕，可怕的是寂寞来袭的时刻，回忆一片片的掉落面前，这样才最可怕



the small bottle of alocohols that alvinn got from kyle.... again, didnt have the chance to take picture of them the other time...

dat's how small they are compared to my strawberry green tea... =)


+++++++++++++++++++++

supposingly, me and alvinn will meet mark & normaN at orchard... then go study at orchard...

happen to meet alvinn's sis at the lift... she said that it's impossible to study at orcahrd.. i was still saying "shld be okay la"

but... really end up nv study today....


had lunch with alvinn at soup & spoon...
the soup was gorgeous.. =) i love it!!

but forget to take picture of it until it was half eaten...

nvm.... better than nothing n_n

some of the stuff that we bought for the study...


BUT.....

unfortunatly...... we end up taking picture at starbucks.... -_-!!!



a random shot at mark...

i like the way he looks in the picture... so much better than the really person...

bleah... =P

:s how did we came out with so many expressions... LOL...

i love the skirt i am in! (i actually bought it lyk 1 month ago? wanted to wear it when i go out with him.. but didnt have the chance to......)

+++++++++++++++++++++++++

Lee helped me to apply my lifejournal account yesterday

it was quite fun to play with.... and seems lyk they got a great short name-----LJ

doesnt it sounds weird???

when they are telling you "thanks for using LJ"

anyway... LJ was fun to play with... =( sounds very wrong again

u can choose ur reader, instead of the reader choose whom to read...

dat's the part that i love..

面对自己所选择的，让我很舒服的人，就不用整天假装自己是喜剧演员了

很好~

dozing off at 12:39:00 AM