i do remember i was on-ing my lappy after i reached home yesterday.. and typing in something. but if you ask me, what did i type... =/ i dont think i can remember a single word..

so.... i was quite surprised when i wake up this "morning".. seeing all the complete sentences that i typed in..

W.o.W.
what was going on my mind?
who was i thinking about?

WOW... i dont know.. i cant remember


and... i slept with my aircon on-ed and windows all widely open =/

worst of all.. i didnt even take out my contact lens!!!!!!!!!

Oh Moi God..

i actually heard a "piak" when i took it out just now... pain :(


again it's our little drinking session on friday

becauz of all the unhappiness happened last week, i was actually prepared to get drunk.. =/ was wondering how does drunk feels like...

hm~ let's see what can alcohol do to a person


was drinking by the baby pool side

:) luck me was wearing a skirt... so that i can go down and waddle the water like a kid

p.s: if you want to knw the time sequence of the things happened.. just take note of the wetness of my skirt.. LOL

after one cup of drink.. i started taking picture of myself...

i just put my camera at the side of the pool, then walk into the middle of the pool, ghostly..

sometimes even hold my skirt high and run.. ha ha~



i forgot to on the timer.. and didnt have the time to run...

LOL



yes.. i started getting high..

and mark thought i was drunk... i was NOT.. okie.. at least at that point of time i was not drunk YET..

it is amazing how brave you can get after drinking too much...



after a while, mark joined in me to take pictures..

my W.o.W and mark's LOL... his LOL was on the wrong side.. so he's the one who is drunk

alvinN the new bollywood star

alcohol gives you the courage to do things which u will nv do when you are awake..

as you all realise... my skirt was getting weter and weter...

since we were already wet, then must well just have fun to swim

i dont really remember who was the first one to get pushed into the pool

i just remember mark and alvinn tried to carry me up.. i run, and i sort of fall inside pool by myself..

=/

and i started splashing water onto alvinn... mark was pulled in as well...

siti keep saying she's going home and yet she watched us play...

when mark pinched her down on the floor, i went to squeezze all the water in my skirt on her.. ha ha.. dat was funny...

and since we were all wet, we went to swim in the main pool....

dat was like the best swimming experience i had...

nobody was watching me.. and i got my skirt on.. it feels very different from the swimming suit..

feel so free

the whole world was mine :)

unfortunatly... we made too much noise while in the main pool..

we were shouting and yelling and laughing like nobody's business... and it's 12 o'clock in the midnight...

we were "asked to go back home" by the security gurad..

i understand la.. if i wam sleeping at that time, i sure will get super piss-ed by the noisy kids as well...

again.. i was being irritating... or we were being irritating.. sorrrleeeee

so... four soaking wet kids went up the sky garden...

because we need to dry ourselves before we go home

the wind there was strong.. but it was SUPER COLD..

my whole body was shivering..

lucky i bought a shirt at vivo before i went to alvinn place...

it's so much better to have one piece of dry cloth on my body to keep me warm a bit...

it was a big mistake to wear heels yesterday since i was already prepared to get drunk

because i was bored.. i painted my nails at the sky garden

seems like it is not so obvious from the picutre.. because the lose of control in my muscles, i cant paint my nails properly..

the nail polish was all over my hand.. and i even almost spill the whole bottle of nail polish..

clumsy shit =(

when alvinN asked me to stand on top of the little "fountain"

i run-ed to the top of it... it was not as easy as it seems to be.. i cant really stand up properly at that point of that..

yes yes.. alcohol give you the corage to do stupid things.. i cant imagine if i fall..............................

i wanted to jump down...

but somehow i knw i cant.. lucky i didnt jump down, if now, i sure will break my leg

one thing was clearly remembered in my mind...

i grab alvinN's phone and searched through his contact list.. when i saw the name "evan"

i started shouting at the phone "uncle! uncle! hello uncle!!"

when i didnt get any response from the phone.. out of no where, i just got really really sad...

somehow i got the phobia to call people on the phone.. i was be super scared and nervous and dont knw what to crap...

i really really want to put down the phone when i heard the "du.. du... du.." it's so scary!!!

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after all, i have tasted what is it like to be a drunk...

i had the highness and fun when the alcohol is still in my body

but the coldness, lonliness and emo-ness arrives soon after..

followed up by the headache, muscle ache.. even until now my hands are shivering for no reason..

:( terrible...

i dont want to be drunkie again... once is enough....

no point toturing myself for somebody else's mistake

a promised was made to meself: maintain at least 2 meals a day.. have been doing well so far..

:) even had my first 3 meals a day on thursday...

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uncle went to take funnly pictures of himself when i walked off on thursday..

not to say it's funny, it's just the effort that make me smile.. :)

thx lao uncle!!!!

everyone's catching the emo flu.....

but i have taken the medicine...

i am slowly walking out of the emo corner

and yesterday i actually went to shopping at vivo ALONE

i really really want to go shopping..

it has been so long since the last time i step into vivo...

物是人非的回忆，比比皆是。。。

只是没有触景伤情

我已经变得很坚强，超坚强那种

虽然依旧偶尔怀念，偶尔流泪，但是至少我可以对全世界微笑着说，我很好，我一点都不想他。这样就很棒了，不是么？

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can time stop?

its far by going too fast.. too fast for me to grab any part of you.

it doesnt have to stop at anytime.. just stop when you're around =)

可不可以骗我说，这句话是写给我听的？

因为，我真的好喜欢这句话。。。。

dozing off at 12:59:00 PM