2008/09/26

i didnt realise when it just started

but now it's getting worse and worse


when i realise it's monday... the first thing came to my mind is always "can i dont go?"



i dont want to just end it like this
i still want to get my black belt... i still want to be a good fighter

i am not improving ... i am avoiding things that i cant do well

:(

i dont like this kind of me
but i cant really help


how? how how how how?

then now do what?



maybe, i need to eat more passion fruit

>_<

dozing off at 1:59:00 AM