2008/11/27

just because we share the same character, i understand you a lot, u cant expect all the rest to be the same as me.

maybe i have set a standard for the others how they should treat you, but not everybody can get how you feel like the way i can.

it's not fair that u ask them to do things in my way when they are not me


basicly, that's what he told me on friday night



thanks for helping me realise this



i am stuck in deep deep shit
and yet i am struggling in the shit, without knowing how disgusting it is


i thought i've changed for the better over these years
end up, i realise i am still the same old me

selfish bastard who always thinks that i am correct
saying all the mean things to the others and cant take what they comment on me

i feel way too good about myself

i'm still the haiyu, childish and selfish...


when i was on my way home from starbucks, i realised that i've lost my ez-link

for a moment, the kind of heart pain feeling came in...

and when i went back to the starbucks, the guy saw me and called my name...

so i knw for sure, they found my ez-link... it always make u feel happy when u found back something that you thought you've lost it

was thinking that maybe should treasure everything/every friend that i have


but, i dont knw how to




i used to say that all i have are just classmates, colleagues, CCA-mates and so on......

it meant a lot when you call someone your "friend"

i only have 2.5 friends in Singapore

why 0.5? cos there's one friend that most of the time fun and caring... but sometimes he'll just piss me off

so like that, he's just half a friend


i am scared that, i might only left with 2 friends in the future

even the half of him is hard to keep

i dont knw how to handle this any more


this is hard


it used to be the time which i've got no friends...
living up the moutain alone


maybe it's not really a happy life, but it's always an easier way out


take a look at my world

almost every sentence is about "me" and "I"

this is my world, only contains "I"

that's the only person that ever really occupied a space in my heart

there's no input, no output... no generation, but a lot of consumption



full of jiao wei-ness



it's hard to die

but it's even harder to live

dozing off at 1:58:00 AM