2009/09/30

CPTC is really making me snap
i feel like quitting school!!

shld i write a email to my mentor first? or straight away go to student service centre?

life has nv been this bad

i screwed my mid-term
i fail my first 2 logbook entries
i dont get to eat lunch on time...
and worst of all, i am learning NOTHING
maybe there's a future for me to look forward to??
doing FYP with a class that i cant work with....


it's not i dont bother about CPTC
i really tried.... the hardest try since i entered CBE... thinking this might be a turning point where i actually start to like CBE...
i tried not to sleep in CPTC... the total time of me sleeping inside CPTC, cant even make up for my one day's sleeping time in NP

but still, i am not doing well
i know my brain is not designed for chemicals
but i thought hard work might get paid sometimes??

i am not the only one that is lazy

my luck has been bad
got seperated from my own class, get a super slacky trainer, get the worst timing for shift work... so much and so much .....
nobody actually cares about how we survive in CPTC
there are just so many "not fair"s that i could do nothing about it


i feel like it's so hard to breathe

since i am so sux at it, must well just stop trying so hard and enjoy my life there
i shall watch one piece for the whole night, and sleep in lecture tomorrow :D

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btw, yesterday's pasta turned out to be quite good
at least there wasnt any leftovers :D
i am happy abt that

dozing off at 11:34:00 PM