2010/01/08

i always write a bit about tkd after each training
the passion for tkd was long gone... maybe since sep 2008? when i first started to disappear in trainings...
it's sad when ppl see me as "rare visiters" of the club
it's okay, at least i had my perfect attendence and 100% concentration for almost 2 years

everyday i see my gi hanging there
thinking, should i participate in the coming IVP
i am not afraid of training hard
i am not afraid of forcing myself to lose weight
i am just so afraid that, after trying so hard in everything, i still fail
i dont believe that only the process is important...
i dont want to lose.. there's no such thing as 100%winning... so i try to avoid it..


i have been avoiding sparring since ..... i cant remember... when was i last seen firghting in the arena? i miss the haiyu that always uses slamming kick in the sparring..
i will continue to train... until i get what i want :D
BTW, i like the way i look in my gi

maybe dragging my body to training groud will be 100 times easier if hyun joong had some show abt tkd
i can play from the prechorus until ending of on my guitar now
i am so proud of myself~~ hee
i seriously hate my sweaty palms when i'm playing guitar/making earrings!!

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and when the coach was talking abou;t " you know the power of alpha male" during training... i actually shouted out "jacob black" with excitement... oh my~ his eight packs... MLIT

dozing off at 12:13:00 AM