i think i did well in the friendly match.. from the moment i am in the room, the idea of run away and hide somewhere has never leave my mind
proud to say, i fight for 2 rounds. never let the fear overtake me!
win or lose, it still makes me happy. maybe apart from winning the match, i need to have some "entertaining" factor in my match... even myself feel boring during the sparring, sometimes, sometimes...

there are still the same old problems with me.. slow slow slow..
:(
like this not only i wont get my curry rice, but i might also get my head kicked

trying my best is not enough, i have to be the best

sorry to my dearest friend and alvinn and pinkie. i know i have been pushing back a lot of things.. i have been absenting a lot in the meet ups... i know it is hard for you guys to understand this, but let's take it as if i dont train hard now i will get killed in three weeks' time.

and please do not trying to come and watch me fighting in the nationals. you guys have been never supportive in me and my taekwondo. maybe you are too shy to say the word "cool" in front of me. and you guys dont know abt the sport at all, you make stupid jokes which sounds quite hurting to me.
i know some ppl always think, haha, what can you do with your kicks? you are a girl after all. you are so weak... yes, if we fight in the peaceful way you look down on us and dont give a damn about taekwondo, when we get violent a bit, you people will start saying this is a danverous sport and it shld be stopped...
what should i do?!

being me, the extremely no confidient, super negative me, i know all my weakness very well. so if you have not seen me fight, please keep the comments to yourself.

i love taekwondo <3
nothing can change this, that's why i am engaged to NPTKD...:D

the NUS shuai ge is just so shuai!

dozing off at 11:59:00 PM